"Create from the world within. Then present life to a world without."
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| 6.27.2009 |
CHOICE
The old saying is life is full of choices. You reap what you sew. The ability to choose what will benefit you or not is a powerful tool.
But a hammer can become a danger if misused.
When you are little, you are taught how to choose wisely from others, parents and school teachers normally.
They will teach you to look both ways before you cross the street or not to touch the stove because it is hot.
Those are simple choices.
They do so because you are too young to make some choices and it is done to be in your best interest.
But as you get older , you choose what is in your best interest.
You either eat or you do not.
For shelter, you can choose to stay in one location or another.
You can walk, drive, take a bus or train, or even fly to get somewhere.
Those are simplified choices, if allowed to be .
But we complicate things for various reasons.
I think everyone would like to be safe when they drive. But not everyone drives safely.
I have seen people talking or texting on phones, doing make up, and even reading books as they drive.
That is a choice that they have made, but it poses a great risk to themselves and others.
The hammer has become dangerous.
Choosing what tools to use can be the difference between a carpenters common job or a masterpiece.
Your life is a work in progress, choose how you want your masterpiece framed.
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| 6.14.2009 |
LONELINESS
I am not a social butterfly to say the least. Odd, considering my chosen profession. But I understand the balance needed in order to function. I spend alot of my time keeping my body healthy for obvious reason , but also a lot of time alone. I have the mindset of "i would rather be alone with peace than surrounded by chaos". This does not mean everyone functions this way. But this is my direction. I am very self reliant and intent on being self sufficient. But being lonely is a state of mind. As people, we assume the need to have others involved in our lives to fill in emotional voids. I am NOT saying it isnt great to have people in your life. Its amazing when you have people of great integrity around you. What I am saying is that you can determine how to handle that sense of lonelines.
Barring any psychological disorders , how you occupy your time can alter that feeling.Take a walk. Read a book. Play a game. Draw a picture. Watch the stars.
With simple things like that , you will come to realize that you arent ever truly alone.
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| 6.14.2009 |
ENTITLEMENT
Not quite sure how to begin with this entry, but here it goes. Yesterday I woke up to terrible news. The president of Pro Wrestling NOAH passed away suddenly as a result of cardiac arrest. He was a true legend in Japanese Pro Wrestling, competing through different eras of the sport and gaining the respect of competitors and fans alike. This was sad news to wake up to. But it made me think. Yes it is sad he passed away. But what will live forever will be his accomplishments. The brutal encounters he endured throughout his career which left everlasting memories on those who witnessed them. He deserves all the respect in the world. In life and now in death. He is entitled to be honored. And as a former member of Pro Wrestling NOAH, "Satcho" will always be by me.
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| 12.06.2008 |
GRACIOUS
For myself, and in my chosen profession, it is sometimes very difficult to find sincerity. But when it is found,
it is something that you should hold close to you. It is well known that my dream has been to come to Japan.
I trained and studied very hard for years in order to reach and be accepted here. But what I never expected
was the gracious nature of the companies and the people I have come across. From ZERO ONE Pro Wrestling,
ALL JAPAN Pro Wrestling, Pro Wrestling NOAH, HUSTLE, INOKI GENOME FEDERATION to , currently, NEW
JAPAN Pro Wrestling, I have been very fortunate to be shown an incredible amount of kindness, courtesy and respect many
people in my profession would never see. Maybe it is because I have a great respect for what I do , to treat it in high
regard and always remember how fortunate I am to do what I love. Or maybe its just a whole lot of luck. In any event,
the graciousness I have been shown through the years will never be forgotten because without it, I don't think I could
have become the person I am today.
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| 10.13.2008 |
MANNERS
In the past, what you learned at home would be the foundation of your character. Parents, or those who raised you, would
teach you certain ways to act and what to say that would be seen as polite. Sometimes if you didnt behave with politeness,
or show some manners, you would be punished for it until you did. There are simple words, phrases and ways to act to
show others whether or not you have manners. "Please" and "thank you" are probably the most common points,
yet are forgotten often. There are cultural differences all over the world , but manners seem to exist in each of them.
In business, it is a necessity to use manners while interacting with other parties.
And in many cases, that simple act can be the deciding factor of whether or not you will be successful.
I have noticed more and more, that more people are treating others with little to no regard and demand more than ask.
The old saying "treat others how you would like to be treated" seems to fade away more and more everyday.
But I would like to share with you that things can run alot more easily by a simply behaving in a polite way.
"Can you help me please? Can I help you? I would like to know if you can teach me about this? Im sorry.
Pardon me. Excuse me. Open a door or pull out a chair
for someone. There is alot of ways to show manners. It is up to you to show them. Try and thank someone, as I thank you for reading this entry.
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| 6.26.2008 |
TRUST
Trust is something you earn. Not easily give out. There are people in this world who prey on people
who do.
I come from a strong family. Self reliance is taught. Common sense is upheld. Dignity is maintained.
But what happens if you are convinced to trust someone. Human nature equips you with instincts.
We as people manipulate and stray from them. In this example, that was the case.
One day, I was introduced to a woman. This woman was a coworker to someone in my family. While
this woman is an outsider to my family, I was convinced to trust her. Good relationship with my family
seemed to be a major factor. Internally, something did not seem right. Almost like I had an instict that
was telling me "this might not be such a good idea".
This woman stood in touch with my family and I from time to time, always friendly, always pleasant.
One day she presented a business idea. Join her in an investment group, where everyone helps one another.
Again, this woman was being trusted by good relation to my family. I joined the group and several
transactions take place. Then one day, I am alone. Abandoned with no further interaction from the woman I
was convinced to trust. I became responsible for the transactions that took place
with no help from anyone. It is a hard lesson, but I know how trust is something that is earned , not handed out.
Several months later, the woman did contact me. Naturally, with excuses. No information in regards to the
supposed help that was to be within the group. Just more worthless chatter from a fast talker.
Remember that feeling I had awhile ago? It just came true. This wasnt a good idea.
This woman has made a great living, according to her, through transactions with "investors".
She is a fast talker. Preying on people who are willing to listen to her and fall for her information.
The idea behind this entry is to remind you, that trust is a personal value that should be protected.
Alot of people are careless. Alot of people are reckless. There are , also , some bad people in the world.
That woman has proven to be untrustworthy.
Her name is Shari Lynn Belton.
If you are approached or contacted by her,
I highly suggest taking your business and life elsewhere.
Protect yourself and your values. If you share them, make sure it is well deserved.
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| 6.26.2008 |
SELF RELIANCE
I value the need for self reliance. Maybe sometimes too much. But in any case, it is such a
incredible characteristic to have. Especially in todays modern world.
When I was little, it was taught to me that if you want something, you have to work for it.
Nothing is handed to you.
Growing up I became the first in my family to have certain things, a tattoo, a computer and a car.
I had to work to get them, some harder than others. Regardless, they werent given to me. I didnt wait
for someone to tell me I was going to receive these things. I wanted them. I worked for them. I got them.
I focused and didnt rely on anyone else to get this done.
Trust is a major issue with alot of people. But before you can trust others you need to trust yourself.
If you dont, you need to work on that. You are in charge of building up your self esteem and self trust,
to become self reliant.
Do you want get good grades? Study.
Do you want to buy a home? Start with a job.
Too shy to approach someone you like? Make a funny face at them. Break the ice. Then talk.
No one is going to live your life for you. Rely on yourself to live.
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| 3.13.2008 |
CHALLENGE
How will you ever know if you are good at something? You need to have something question your ability and then show your ability. To be challenged isnt a bad thing, although adults may differ with that idea. It is a call for your abilities into a contest. How you handle the result of the challenge is most important. I know not everyone lives the same life. Some have more difficult lives than others. But the idea is the same. What will you do with a challenge? You have the choice to take it on or back down. Will you face the challenge? Whether positive or negative result, you will gain experience from it. Or will you let the challenge intimidate you, to where it becomes "nothing ventured, nothing gained". That is a basic ideal of survival, manage the best you can against all challenges. I am injured. Does it bother me? Yes. I cannot be down or depressed about it. I know that it isnt the end of the world. I will return to the profession I love and will more than likely return hungrier than before. This is an incredible challenge to me, but I am not going to allow it to weaken me or stop me from what I want to do with my career and life. Everyone faces challenges daily. This doesn't mean to go out and look for a fight, but see how incredible you can become. Face your world of challenges.
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| 1.13.2008 |
CONSISTENCY
When you go to a restaurant, what do you look for and how do they keep you interested
in coming back? Is it the food or service? Is it certain people you like seeing?
If they continually offer good experience, you will be more
open to returning. They offer consistency. A repeated delivery of some type of quality.
Good food. Good service. Good environment. Good people.
These factors, on a repeated basis, will allow the restaurant to do well.
Now if you had a bad experience there, will you return? You waited to be seated
for a long time. The food didnt taste good. The waiters didnt bring you your entire
meal. Speaking with various people, normally bad experience will not keep that
door open. But I have also spoken to some people who have allowed second chances,
only to find
out that some places were consistent with bad experience. It happens. You just have to
be aware of what type of consitency is present.
Consistency can give you insight to what you are getting yourself into. I have learned
that if you offer consistency in a beneficial way, you become more valuable to your
surroundings. Would you hire someone who is constantly late , doesnt get along
with other staff members and never completes their work? Or would you hire someone who
has numerous recommendations, shows up early, leaves late and always completes their
work? Consistency is a great tool for having or giving insight to the future.
What can you offer consistently? Think about it, you may be more valuable than you first
thought.
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| 10.8.2007 |
COLOR
When you open your eyes, what do you see? I mean, aside from being blind or having some type of
vision impairment, what do you see? You see life. And life is full of color. You will see red, blue and yellow,
the basic elements of color. And from them, you will see the variations, purple, green, brown, orange, etc.
Color can add more to life. More excitement. More feeling. More emotion.
Color has even been developed into a therapy, called Chromatherapy or light therapy.
According to Essortment.com, "Because light has
a frequency, it can be assumed that light of different colours have different frequencies. When a human is
exposed to a particular colour light, his or her emotions or bodily functions will be affected in some way.
For example, it has been found that when exposed to prolonged red light, a persons blood pressure will rise,
and the opposite will happen when exposed to a prolonged blue light. " When you keep things simple, it is said to be
seeing things in black and white. I believe that works when it comes to the most important things. Keep them simple
to have things run more smoothly.
But with everything else, adding a touch of color might help you see things much more clearly. Blue is my favorite
color, what's yours?
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| 10.7.2007 |
TEACHING
The world around you is constant. Observing can give you great insight on important lessons.
You can learn alot from what is around you. But what about the other way around? What if you can offer
the lesson? You can teach something needed to be taught. Now I am not talking about being a martyr, or
a person who suffers throught torment or death in order to further a principal, idea or belief.
I am
talking about being the person who teaches positive and progressive lessons to others.
A school teacher helps to structure the minds of students to apply their lessons in society.
When in the work environment, you will go through some type of orientation. Someone helps you in becoming familiar with
that particular job, in order to do it better.
And a true religious leader applies the lessons learned from their faith to help believers,and non believers, to
better their lives. These people have lessons that can be used and passed on.
I remember when I began training for Pro Wrestling. While
training, I bit through the middle of my tongue. I remembered thinking to myself that I was in alot of trouble. With
the blood and the pain, I wasnt feeling all that great.
But after a few moments, I didnt think it was the end of the world and chose to continue training.
There was no one there to tell me that I am hurt, step away and see how bad it is. No one was there giving me any sympathy.
The lessoned I learned, is that in life, you arent always going to have someone there to help you. It might be in
your best interest to take control of things and move forward.
That is the basis for why I advocate taking on your challenges, fears and obstacles.
The experience you gain from them will make YOU into a teacher. Then it will be up to YOU
when your lesson is learned.
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| 8.17.2007 |
ENVIRONMENT
Success shouldnt be determined by what you could have had, but what you have earned. In order to be successful, you have to have the resources available to you, in order for you to reach your potential. Many people see their environment as their key to success. What surrounds you can be the can determine how well you do for yourself and/or others. If you arent happy in one place, put yourself in another. It isnt always that easy, but the world is much larger than most believe. "You'll never know, until you try" is an older generation saying that promotes the search for answers. You wont know how succesful you can be unless you try to give yourself the best possible opportunity. Some people go to school and decide that a transfer to another would better suit them. Some are unhappy at work, so apply and move onto other jobs to improve their living. In business culture, your environment can be a fruitful blessing or the nail in the coffin. I recently spoke with someone who wasnt doing to well in life. He seemed to have many problems, such as family, health, school and work. The suggestion was made on moving away from the negativity in order to give himself some breathing room. Several hundred miles away seemed to be job opportunity, school support , some health benefit and simply, a change of setting. This person is doing better for himself now, although not 100% out of the woods. But that takes time and effort to correct. He would have never known what could have been there for him if he didn't try. He tried, so how about you?
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| 1.2.2007 |
ACTION
The world is full of life. So much is happening. But things do not happen without someone or something
directing them. That performance, execution, or occurrence is called action. To live a full life, you have to act on
the opportunities you come across. Sometimes you create opportunities. Sometimes they can just fall into your lap.
But why miss out on gaining more experience and chances to better your life and fill it with excitement? I see and hear
stories of people wanting to better themselves or material things. Some are unhappy with their jobs or current situations
in their lives. Some feel like they have no excitement or adventure. It's boring, dull and feel like theyr'e in a rut. So what
will you do about it? I felt that way a few years ago. This was before I was wrestling fulltime. I worked in a place that was
ok. Not really exciting or fullfilling. When I realized that there is more out there for me to experience, I gave myself a
challenge. I quit on Christmas Eve and promised myself that I would start the new year on a positive note. I was able to
refocus on my wrestling. I even got a better job that was flexible for me to work wrestling into my schedule comfortably.
I was being paid more and I was having more fun. I did something about it! I know all kinds of people who have various
situations in there lives that they feel stalled or unproductive. I know someone who has low self esteem and has surrounded
himself with others who feel the same. He is unproductive and unhappy. But, he has all the opportunity in the
world, to just say "I want better for myself". All he has to do is take action. Do something about it.
I know a woman who is unhappy with her family life. Problems are occurring because she is allowing it. The opportunity for
change is there, but she is afraid to act. It does'nt mean she can't or is unable to, she chooses not to. And her family is
affected by it. But, they can influence change by working together and taking action to help themselves. I guess the idea I
would like to get across is that you are not helpless if you take action. Do something about the things in your life. You want to do
better in school? Study. Put yourself in a good learning environment. Work with your teachers. You want a better job? Work hard.
Keep applying for what you want. Surround yourself with those who can help you reach it. You want to talk to that person across
the room, because you think they're attractive or just spiked the punch? Haha regardless, do something about it. Go over and talk.
Just like the old saying goes, for every action, there is a reaction. Go get your reaction.
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| 11.28.06 |
DRIVE
What do you want in life? Seems like an easy question to ask. But the people I have asked in the past have had
such a hard time answering it. What do I want in life? I don't know anymore. I guess it has to do with how unstable
my professional life is. Doesn't matter where it is, with what I do, there is very little stability and security. It can all
be gone tomorrow with an injury, or a sickness or a tragedy. If that were to happen, then what? What would I want
to do? Over the years, I've developed a reputation as a very hard worker, not in reference to my physicality, but to my
work ethic. I wanted to reach certain things and have a certain perception by peers and supporters. I have basically
reached almost every goal that I have set for myself. If I peek with my success, then what? Is this the end of the line?
I don't believe so. It will become the beginning of a new one. I dont' like not having some security or stability in the event
something does go wrong, so I work hard and think ahead. It is my drive to protect my family and myself for the future.
Simple equation. I want something, so I go get it. Nothing in life is owed to you. You have to work hard to reach it, no matter
what the idea is. I spoke with someone close to me recently. The fear of uncertainty is very strong in his life. Health is
an issue. Job security is an issue. Living arrangements are an issue. Personal life is an issue. So with all of these things,
he doesn't know what to do. He feels helpless. But why? He isnt limited in any capacity where he cannot do better for himself.
Many people use that helplessness as an excuse. But realistically, he has all the power in the world to change his own life.
The only challenge now is for him to see that. Another example is a friend I spoke to recently. She said she feels like her world
is falling apart around her. People know how to get under her skin and push her buttons. She's stressed and just feels like she
can't do anything about it. Again, no limitation whatsoever stopping her from just saying "Stop" and reassess everything. She wants
to model. But doesn't believe its a realistic goal. Remember that old saying, "You can do anything you put your mind to!" There's
her answer. She doesn't like whats going on around her. Do something about it. He feels helpless and is scared by not knowing
whats going to happen around him. Do something about it. You are now in a car that represents life. You can either sit there and
watch everyone else pass you by. If not, put on your seatbelt and do what you're meant to do...DRIVE.
"IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, GO GET IT"
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| 11.8.06 |
CONSIDERATION
In a world of so much activity, stop and go, stop and go... sometimes we forget we're not alone.
We lose sight of others that are around us. Next to us. Behind us. In front of us. And we just go on.
Traditionally, when you are younger, you are taught values and manners that normally carry on as
you grow, developing them and realizing them throught lessons learned. "Treat others as you would
like to be treated". "Give and you shall receive". I have even seen , recently, that there is a book about
being polite in order to succeed in the corporate world. Simple enough I guess. But there is all too
much around me of the opposite in todays world. I see it in everyday life. Once I was on a city bus,
on my way home. For the most part, the ride was quiet, aside from the normal stir of a days noise
pollution in Brooklyn. As I rode, a few people decided to get on there cell phones, typical in todays
world. It isnt uncommon to hear people talking on their phones. But when they are really loud enough
for people to hear and understand their conversations, it might be best to just lower your voice a bit.
I caught the womans attention as she spoke and just gestured to lower her voice with my hand. She
took that as the ultimate insult, ranting and raving I had no right to tell her to shut up. Now I never said
any words, just a simple lowering of my hands, but that was enough to make her angry. She yelled and
claimed I was nosy, even describing the purpose of her conversation. I politely said I dont need to know
that because that isnt my business and all I asked was to lower her voice, without even speaking words.
I was thinking of the other passengers. I didnt want to yell across the seats at one person, possibly startling the
other passengers. The woman on the other hand, had no problem letting her business known. She could
have cared less about everyone else on that bus, just as long as they knew she was right in the matter.
The conversation was very brief between us, and she did end up turning her phone off and leaving the bus.
After she had left, I had a few passengers thank me for speaking up. They were upset about her lack of
consideration, as well as respect and class with the way she had handled everything. Instances like that
make me think that being considerate is something that doesnt appear very common anymore.
I see it in professional life. Companies want everything from there workers, while generating incredible revenue but
poorly supporting the people who help them do it. The US Government did that with the treatment of New
Orleans after Hurricane Katrina. They continually use up all the resources and give almost nothing back to the city,
and basically turned their backs on the city when help was needed most. Makes me wonder whatever happend
to that simple moment of consideration that use to be taught in the past. I make that mistake
sometimes with how busy I am, but I catch myself too. And I try to be considerate. Its the least I can do for
being lucky enough to have the life I do. So when you have the time, just take a moment and consider all those
things around you and all those you have around you. You're not the only one living on this planet ;)
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| 11.1.06 |
EXERCISE
The body is a fragile thing. But through exercise it can become an impressive structure. Conditioning the senses, organs and muscles all together, can
shape it to withstand what life puts the body through. From personal experience, I believe there is a great variety of results exercise can give you. First of all,
it can change your appearance. From there, when people feel they look good, they feel good and feel better about themselves. That self esteem carries on
outward and can create a very positive surrounding, with friends and family. So overall, its a great benefit. But you also have to take into consideration that
there are things that can hurt you. Sometimes too much exercise can do more harm than good, tiring the body and wearing down your natural energy. Too much
stress or mental unrest can break down even some of the strongest of people. So its good to educate yourself about exercise. Learn what works for you and what
does not. That exercise of the mind may lead you to the greatest workout you can possibly have.
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| 6.2.06 |
COMPROMISE
The world can be difficult at times. Things may not be in your favor. But turning away
may not be necessary. What happens when you and another party, or more, cannot agree on something?
Are you always going to walk away because you do not get your way? Or will that happen with the other side?
I have heard throughtout my life, "you get back, what you put into it".
This means that you have some work ahead of you if you wish to be on the beneficial end of things.
Compromise is a term that many should learn. Not just for the business sense, but for the experience of working
with others. If two people want to walk a series of doorways, going at the same time can cause some problems. Getting
stuck and becoming pretty irritated after a few tries can lead to unwanted results. But if one allows the other to
walk ahead, and the same occurs in return, and so on, we will have better results. And with that, the flow
runs alot smoother. I remember trying to stay out later with friends when I was younger, but my parents wouldnt allow it.
But we came up with a compromise. If I take care of my schoolwork and chores, they would allow the later time. And it
worked out well. When both sides can fairly benefit, then it is more favorable. But when a compromise becomes something
that can put your dignity or safety in danger, then it isnt worth it. It is very common to hear of people who compromise their
bodies in an attempt to make another happy. When they dont receive what they expected, it leads to all kind of other
troubles. Another example are people who try to help loved ones or those they care about, time and time again, allowing themselves to become apart
of a negative pattern. This can be such as supporting a person with an addiction. The support doesn't come in the form of supplying the
addiction, but allowing the addiction to continue by supporting the remaining aspects of that persons life, such as their
responsiblities. You see, compromise can be a great thing, if you work on it. Just don't allow it to work on you.
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| 6.2.06 |
DIGNITY
I know this is probably going to bother some but I felt this
is something that may be needed to be said. A big part of today's
younger generation has not been taught values that help people
progress in life. In a sense, they dont show any dignity.
Too often I have heard of younger people,
especially teenagers, that have very little control. Being
from New York, I see and hear tragedies all too often. It is
very common to hear about teens and young adults turning violent
as a first reaction to any authority or frustration. People have
been robbed or attacked for something as stupid as an IPOD.
It seems that it is becoming all too common to see these things
and, for many, just to say "thats a shame. Something should be
done." Well, I believe something should be done. I remember as
a teen, not feeling accepted, and not necessarily caring about
myself was a problem. But I was able to overcome that. I did
that with really great examples around me. I was taught to
stand alone and show some dignity, or being worthy of esteem or respect.
Not being bunched in with
the rest of the world. Working hard and earning respect for myself. Doing
things in a fair and honest way so that there isn't any room
to dispute my actions. Although I know you cannot please all
of the people all of the time,
I hold my head up confidently, knowing that the path I chose and the
actions I used were those that were examples of what I was
taught.
I want to live peacefully, always progress and help those
around me get better. I want to live with dignity. Apparently,
that does not seem to be a common idea anylonger. So I challenge everyone who wants
a better life, to make your choice in creating a better world for
yourselves, as well as those around you, by instilling that
dignity, or poise, self respect, esteem, however you wish to
call it, in yourself and try to help others develop it for
themselves. In the end, Im sure with everyone able to hold their heads up
confidently, we'll all have a better chance to see eye to eye.
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| 2.18.06 |
RETROSPECT
This was a story that was emailed to me that I felt was important to share. After reading, it can give you some form of restrospect to your own life. To look back at the past and think about it.
Read This Slowly
Jack took a long look at his speedometer before slowing down: 73 in a 55 zone. Fourth time in as many months. How could a guy get caught so often?
When his car had slowed to 10 miles an hour, Jack pulled over, but only partially. Let the cop worry about the potential traffic hazard. Maybe some other car will tweak his backside with a mirror. The cop was stepping out of his car, the big pad in hand.
Bob? Bob from Church? Jack sunk farther into his trench coat. This was worse than the coming ticket. A cop catching a guy from his own church. A guy who happened to be a little eager to get home after a long day at the office. A guy he was about to play golf with tomorrow.
Jumping out of the car, he approached a man he saw every Sunday, a man he'd never seen in uniform.
"Hi, Bob. Fancy meeting you like this."
"Hello, Jack." No smile.
"Guess you caught me red-handed in a rush to see my wife and kids."
"Yeah, I guess." Bob seemed uncertain. Good.
"I've seen some long days at the office lately. I'm afraid I bent the rules a bit -just this once."
Jack toed at a pebble on the pavement. "Diane said something about roast beef and potatoes tonight. Know what I mean?" "I know what you mean. I also know that you have a reputation in our precinct ." Ouch. This was not going in the right direction. Time to change tactics.
"What'd you clock me at?"
Seventy. Would you sit back in your car please?"
"Now wait a minute here, Bob. I checked as soon as saw you. I was barely nudging 65." The lie seemed to come easier with every ticket.
"Please, Jack, in the car"
Flustered, Jack hunched himself through the still-open door. Slamming it shut, he stared at the dashboard. He was in no rush to open the window.
The minutes ticked by. Bob scribbled away on the pad.
Why hadn't he asked for a driver's license?
Whatever the reason, it would be a month of Sundays before Jack ever sat near this cop again. A tap on the door jerked his head to the left. There was Bob, a folded paper in hand Jack rolled down the window a mere two inches, just enough room for Bob to pass him the slip.
"Thanks." Jack could not quite keep the sneer out of his voice.
Bob returned to his police car without a word. Jack watched his retreat in the mirror. Jack unfolded the sheet of paper. How much was this one going to cost?
Wait a minute. What was this? Some kind of joke?
Certainly not a ticket. Jack began to read:
"Dear Jack, Once upon a time I had a daughter. She was six when killed by a car. You guessed it- a speeding driver. A fine and three months in jail, and the man was free. Free to hug his daughters, all three of them. I only had one, and I'm going to have to wait until Heaven before I can ever hug her again.
A thousand times I've tried to forgive that man. A thousand times I thought I had. Maybe I did, but I need to do it again. Even now. Pray for me. And be careful, Jack, my son is all I have left..........Bob"
Jack turned around in time to see Bob's car pull away and head down the road. Jack watched until it disappeared. A full 15 minutes later, he too, pulled away and drove slowly home, praying for forgiveness and hugging a surprised wife and kids when he arrived.
Life is precious. Handle with care. This is an important message; please pass it along to your friends. Drive safely and carefully. Remember, cars are not the only things recalled by their maker.
Funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the sanctity of life, people think twice about sharing.
Funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it to them.
Pass this on, you may save a life. Maybe not, but we'll never know if we don't try.
May today there be peace within you. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. "I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
I lost a family member to a drunk driver. I was only about 10 when it happend, but I have never forgotten about the day I heard she passed. And all because of someone who couldnt control himself. By now he is probably able to live his life and move on as if nothing had happend. When I look back, I take that as a learning experience that can't be shared enough. It is all too common to see the same stories on the news daily. With mistake and tragedy, come great lessons. It is up to you to keep the lesson, learn it and share it with others. Look back and move forward.
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| 2.18.06 |
RESPECT
To willingly show consideration towards something is to show respect for it. Respect is something that is suppose to begin being taught at home and grow throughout the growing and learning process of life. When I was younger, I heard alot of "respect your elders", or those who are older than you. I didnt understand that until I grew older. Not being one for titles, I have learned to address people formally as a sign of respect. Those who have experience over yours should be respected for they can offer you more than what you may already know. Why not get better? It is a big factor in Japanese culture, where elders and more accomplished people are kept in high regard. That creates business ties aimed at developing businesses and production. In the US, especially in New York, the respect level is not strong amonst the younger generations. Myself included, I have seen disrepect to others for no apparent reason. Someone told me of a misunderstanding of a product at a convenience store. The clerk, who serves the public, decided to berate a person for the misunderstanding and because she spoke with an accent. What does the accent have to do with the misunderstanding?
Nothing, and was accepted because of the lack of respect that staff has. Another old saying I have heard throughout the years is "treat those how you would like to be treated". This relates to respect. If you are respectful in how you present yourself, you will more than likely get it in return. Shaquille Oneal, Lance Armstrong, Harrison Ford, Al Pacino, Willie Nelson, Bob Hope, Quincy Jones. They all show respect for what they do and because of how they present themselves, receive high levels of respect in return. When visiting Trinidad, when I greeted or left people there, they would say "much respect". In return, I felt they deserved, at least, that much back from me. It works hand in hand. Give it and get it back. Respect yourself.
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2.18.06 |
SMILE
Throughout all the negativity you may be surrounded by, always find out what makes you smile. A smile can change so much in your day and your life. It is an indication of pleasure, approval and amusement. Have you ever just seen someone smile at you and feel how it changes you? People smile when they laugh. People smile when they are pleasantly surprised. Im probably not the posterboy for smiling considering my in-ring appearance, but even I find time to smile. Find out what makes you smile, it can be a very powerful thing :)
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| 2.18.06 |
RESPONSIBILITY
An obligation or duty where a course of action is held accountable, whether personally or to other sources. Responsibility is becoming a great burden in today's world.
The U.S. Government is notorious for finding responsibility amongst others, rather than looking at itself first. Examples of that being the Enron Corporationg share fraud case, September 11th communications failure, and recently, the Hurricane Katrina Disaster Relief efforts by FEMA. Everyone wants to point a finger at someone else when something bad happens, but no one wants to take responsibility for their actions or lack thereof.
Recently, a man accused of murdering a teenage girl, Carly Bruscia, cried and pleaded for leniency in a Florida court, when he is scheduled to be sentenced to either life in prison or the death chamber. Im sure this wasn't a concern to him as he killed the victim. But, why feel remorse now? That family will never see that child again, but he is pleading to serve a life sentence and continue to live where he is given basic necessities to live for the rest of his life? Where is the sense of responsibility? Capitol punishment is such a touchy subject in American society, but does it become justified when such lack of responsibility is present?
I may be ranting for the moment, but it does bother me how people don't choose to be accountable for what they do or what they have the ability to change. Smokers who are addicted, have the ability to try and quit. It has no health benefit whatsoever, and is a danger to those who do not smoke. People who serve the public and have bad attitudes continue the negativity with poor service and wonder why there is low or no productivity.
I feel that if you lead by proper example, responsibility won't necessarily become a burden, but second natured trait. You have a responsibilty to give yourself the best possible chance at a good life. If it doesn't turn out the way you had hoped, you might not have to look far to find out why.
It's like a door to your house. If you properly open the door with the key, you can go in and feel safe when the door closes. If you kick the door open, breaking the lock, you will get in but now you have to worry if anyone else will come in.
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| 1.9.06 |
MEMORY
It has been 4 years this past December 15th, since I had lost someone close to me. He was a friend, a fellow wrestler and one who I considered part of my family. Russ Haas past away 4 years ago. But my memory of him will never fail. A great person all around with a great heart. The pain of losing him was incredible. I was numb to the whole situation for quite some time. My memory does not fail me at all, though. I can recall of great experiences training, learning from, traveling together, and competing against one another. This past weekend I was blessed to spend time talking with his brother, Charlie Haas, of whom I consider a part of my family as well. The stories we shared about our experiences on our own and together, as wrestlers, were great to relive. Although that tragedy of losing a brother was extremely painful, his memory is still very well maintained among those who knew him. Your memory is such a great gift. It can give you such a great range of emotion, it can even help shape your future. I do know some who go through troubles because of past memory. Sometimes hurtful to relive but ultimately beneficial to conquer, memory can give you a whole new world if you maintain a positive focus. I will never forget the memory of my lost friend. And his memory will give those who knew him a chance to have him around forever and smile.
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| 12.20.05 |
PERCEIVE
Here is a little quiz. Just a fun little quiz given to me by a friend. You are going on a trip with 5 animals. But you must leave one by one along the way. Which is the first will you leave? In what order do you remove them? The five animals are a horse. a cow, a sheep, a lion, and a monkey.
To most, these are just five unimportant animals. How you would eliminate them from your list. Do you remember being taught about these animals in school? Or have you ever seen them at a zoo or farm? Now take the quiz. Again, You are going on a trip with 5 animals. But you must leave one by one along the way.
Have you decided?
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Ok. Here it goes.
Diagnosis :
These 5 animals stand for five meanings. This is the ranking of what you're thinking of during much of your life. The last 1 is most important passion in your life.
Each animals have meanings :
The cow represents money.
The sheep represents love, lover, or partner.
The monkey represents a child.
The horse represents a job.
And the lion represents pride.
How did you perceive them? To perceive something, is to understand it using your senses. This was given to me as a psychological test and I found it very interesting. Now with your result, is that how you perceived yourself? If any, the difference in how you perceive yourself now may give you a better understanding after all. |
| 11.16.05 |
ENCOUNTER
Sometimes described as an meeting of some sort, whether it be unplanned, unexpected or brief. Sometimes even in a confrontational way such
as a fight or competition. In this case, I would like to use it in a sense of an unexpected blessing of sorts. On November 30, 2001, I was given the honor
to have met Eddie Guerrero. At the time, he had been released from the WWF for personal issues, and I was his first opponent since that release. I
was very concerned with that situation. An older generation wrestler down on his luck, and I am the first one to match up with him. A little unnerving, considering I did admire him for his achievements as well. My concern was his overall condition. I was worried he may be in a non wrestling
condition where it would be bad for the company we would wrestle for. To my surprise, I found Mr. Guerrero in a locker room, amongst some other
younger wrestlers, as he sat in a chair, quietly with his hands folded in his lap. I introduced myself to him as his opponent for the evening, and it
took off from there. For someone who knew nothing of me, didn't need to, nor needed to even respect me, he was so incredibly humble and
personable. Simply put, a class act. I was victorious over him that evening, and even in defeat, he was graceful and classy. From then I stood in
contact with him throughout the years. He even checked up on me when finding out about a shoulder injury I had suffered from. He was one of those
people that you come across in life that have that everlasting quality with their true nature. I was deeply saddend to hear of his passing. For someone
I had looked up to, I knew he had a troubled past, but knew he was strong enough to overcome this. Becoming the World Champion was living proof.
He had determination, honor, class and a fire for what he did for his career. I think it will be awhile before it really settles for me, as it did for my friend, Russ
Haas, but I feel fortunate and blessed to have come across such a person. Although I cannot pay my last respects in person, for such an influetial person,
I will be forever greatful for that chance encounter.
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| 8.29.05 |
ARROGANCE
Not to be confused with confidence. With confidence you are trusting or certain when needed. Arrogance is a quality that creates a superior and inferior
manner. So sure of oneself that a feeling of being "greater than", is presented. It's an negative quality. Some people are better at
others in certain situations. But only when a situation calls for their input. Aside from that, you may never know how unique people may be. But when people use a trait to
put themselves above others, that arrogance is formed. Take pro athletes for instance. They make a ton of money. Have a world at their fingertips. Yet some still seem to
think that their actions have no consequence. In the NBA, Latrell Sprewell, who makes millions playing basketball, had a dispute with his contract and said that he
would not accept the deal offered because he "needed to feed his children". In the NFL, Terrell Owens, who is in a 7 year 48.97 million dollar contract, told his employers
he would be disruptive if he did not receive a new contract offer. He was kicked out of a training session because of his disruption. And in the NHL, an entire season was
cancelled because owners and players were upset that some were receiving more money than others. And the fans, who make all of this possible, are out in the
cold. They have created that arrogance and presented it for all to see. It is a negative trait which surrounds itself with more negativity. Be confident in your action, but NOT
so arrogant your action will lose its value.
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| 8.29.05 |
CONFIDENCE
With experience comes knowledge. That knowledge will give you great opportunity and the ability to experience more to continue the cycle. Yet, how do
we know if what we have learned will work? You need apply what you have learned in order to do so. If not, you will never develop that confidence
in your knowledge. That trust. That reassurance. That certainty of what you know will allow you to continue growing. For example, school. You are
taught a lesson. You practice its methods and are tested on it in order to reach a certain level of understanding. From there you can continue to higher levels.
Things that I was taught in school remain with me and, in
certain situations, I can apply them without worry or uncertainty. I am confident in what I have learned and have no worries applying it. In wrestling, 10 percent is physical
and 90 percent is mental. The physical aspect is drilled with great intent. Then when you reach a certain level, the mental aspect will take over. This will create things that
may not have been forseen or intended, but seem to occur naturally because of the confidence generated by everything up until that point. In essence, the point I am trying
to reach is learn to be confident in yourself. Experience. Knowledge. Confidence. Experience. Knowledge. Confidence. The cycle will continue. You can be sure of that.
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| 8.23.05 |
TRANSITION
Life is a system of cycles. Just like the seasons of weather. You can have normal, mild and extreme situations. Winter , spring , summer,
fall and then winter again. We are born as babies, grow as toddlers and adolescents, mature as young adults and adults, and begin to return as the elderly. I believe the
transition from one point to the next is the most important. That ability to change will determine how you manage in the new situation. Things sometimes
happen in your favor. And sometimes they do not. People win the lottery. People suffer a tragic death in the family. People can get a promotion at work or fired because
of the company needing to save money. How will you manage in these changes? Regardless of where you are in your life, transition will be a great factor in creating your
path. If you havent thought of it before, think of it now. Your mind has just been introduced to something new. How will you handle it?
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| 8.23.05 |
CLEANSING
With a world of so much, not all can possibly be good for you. We have greed, envy, hate and anger. We have disease, drugs and lies. Those, alone, are alot to live
with. But all that negative energy will pile up on you. Just like dirty laundry. Have you ever been so unmotivated to do laundry that you just throw your clothes in the same
spot to collect and then say "I will do it later"? I have. And I have watched the clothes pile up until I start to wonder if someone else is putting things there. Well, what can
you do? It is now time for a cleansing. Clean the dirt and funk out of there. Get all that stuff ,that will cause problems, out. Sometimes it can be easy to do. You know, just
bunch it up together and take care of it at the same time. But sometimes it isn't, like having to separate your colored clothes from the whites and washing them with
different detergents. Meaning, that they will need a more detailed approach to correcting them. There are times in life where you will need to think of giving yourself a fresh
start. Kind of like, cleaning away the old to make way for the new. I believe that is a great gift. You have the right to say "Ok, now I need to stop. Take a deep breath and start
from scratch". It can lead you to many things. It can give you a healthier view. And it can finally clear up some space on your bedroom floor. Give it a shot.
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| 7.20.05 |
MISFORTUNE
Life is a great opportunity. To create, experience and love. But life can be difficult at times. It is all in how
you view it and act. I have never heard of anyone who has never had a time which
was difficult or distressful. Misfortune can happen at anytime, anywhere and anyplace. It can be a small thing.
It can be something you know is coming because of your actions or those of another. Sometimes people do things that cause
something bad to happen to someone else, whether it was intentional or unintentional. It isn't something that just happens
to bad people. Not getting the job you applied for or locking keys inside of a car. When traveling, being delayed because of
someone else or weather. Sometimes it is extreme, such as in New York, recently, when a little girl and grandmother from
the same family were killed by a drunk driver. They were on their way from wedding. With the recent bad weather in the NYC
area, a man was electrocuted when trying to pump water from his home. As sad as these events are, what comes from them is
something that can help you. We can really be strong advocates against drunk driving and strengthen the laws. We can also try
to learn better ways to avoid electrical problems from escalating into something fatal. what Im trying to say is the approach
you take on misfortune will determine how fortunate you have the chance of becoming.
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| 5.23.05 |
AWARENESS
Look around you. Do you know what is happening. Do you know what has happend? Can you get a feeling of what will happen? Being aware is something
very important to address. It can give you insight on how to conduct yourself and aim for success. It can lead you to knowledge you didn't know was there to gain. It can also
bring about your natural instinct to avoid danger. In any case, your awareness is a very important trait to improve. It can also be described as an extra, or sixth sense. That intuitive
feeling that tells you something without directly knowing through your other senses. Throughout my life, I have noticed that in 2 subjects, well trained athletes and parents.
Their productivity with growing their bodies and minds give them that higher level of awareness. Naturally, I would think a person would want whats best for themselves and those
around them, but in order to do so, they must take that first step. So again I ask you, Look around you.
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| 5.23.05 |
ANIMALS
Animals are sometimes cute. Animals are sometimes scary. Animals are fun to watch on Animal Planet. But what separates them from us? The fact that we have opposable
thumbs? Or the ability to use logic on different levels? Or the fact that, aside from dolphins, we are the only other animals to use sex for leisure? Monkeys appear to be
very playful but also tempermental. Does this sound like a child to you? Elephants are very social animals, traveling in groups called herds. Teenagers are social,
sometimes very anti-social animals, but also travel in groups that meet at the mall. Dogs and cats are very affectionate and hands on, kind of like the guys from Queer Eye
for the Straight Guy show. Regardless, we have more traits that relate us to animals and animal behavior, than separate us. I dont see animals doing drugs, or polluting
the earth. They dont seem to have problems with national health insurance or arguing who has the right to die. They live by succession and natural selection. Nature
removes and replaces them and continues on. I guess its our own personal egos that creates somewhat of a different world we live in. That impression that we are that
much better than animals that we can alter nature's plan. With that said, who looks like a silly animal now? |
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LIMITATION
"The world is yours." A very powerful, yet simple, statement from the movie "Scarface". You have the ability to do whatever you may want to in life. Do you believe that? If you do, thats great because it can lead you to have much life experience. But if you do not, then why? What stops you? Many seem to use something to limit themselves. That limitation can hold back progress in life. But why? Why would you want to stop yourself from gaining the life experience that could lead you to reach your full potential? Some use fear. Some use ignorance. Think of life as your book. When the book is open, you can write and fill it with content. When it is closed, there is nowhere to write. I believe if you can live openly, or without limitation, you can fill your book. If you live with limitation, then your book will be pretty empty. The world is yours sounds a lot better than the world could have been yours, don't you think?
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| 2.14.05 |
FRUSTRATION
When you are stopped from doing something, no matter how much you try, it will frustrate you. This feeling of being discouraged doesn't feel good. Some can handle it. Some cannot. Some will gladly move onto something else. Some develop alot of stress from it. Regardless, becoming frustrated is something you can change. Rather than allowing it to discourage you, try to understand it. Instead of feeling as if you have failed, realize the experience you gained. Take water for example. No matter where it is, it always finds a way to continue. It doesn't get frustrated. It doesn't dwell on the fact that it has been temporarily stopped. It manages to find a way to continue. It will evaporate, condense, seep through or overflow. Frustration will be temporary, but also can be changed. How will you continue?
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| 2.14.05 |
PRIORITY
I hear older, more experience people talk about others who have their priorities right. Those who are able to manage their lives well and keep their responsibilities in order. When I think about it, it seems simple enough. I believe there is a simple order of living. Take care of the basic necessities before excess. Food, water, shelter, energy and air. They would naturally come before a big color tv or jewelry. Being safe, healthy and productive would seem ideal. But, priority seems to take a backseat in todays world. Hospitals will not accept patients because they cannot afford care. Cigarrettes have no medical benefit and are proven dangerous, yet are continually sold and promoted. Thousands and thousands of city homeless remain without homes, while expensive apartment complexes or sports stadiums are built. I dont quite understand how those who risk their lives for the safety and security of people are still some of the lowest paid, while actors, athletes and artists can generate millions for ideas and achievement. I believe priority is a great category of life to work on in order to live a good life. In the past it was used to live and produce. In the present, sometimes, it seems lost. But, I would like to see it return in the future. What is most important in life can lead you to live. |
| 2.13.05 |
CLASSIC
A standard that few reach. Bob Hope. George Burns. Johnny Carson. Ray Charles. Nat King Cole. Beethoven. Picaso. Gregory Hines. Emmit Smith. Joe Dumars. All performed at a high level, yet were well respected and admired for their longetivity and achievement. Today, it seems as if transition is in effect. The older generation is moving on and the younger generation is moving in. To be classic is a great honor. To have an effect or influence on life is even greater. What I would like to say is try not to forget the classics, regardless of what category it may be. Then think of how great you can be. Becoming a classic may not be too far away.
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12.14.04 |
OBSERVE
The world is so great in size and activity. We may never know all of its secrets. But we have found out some. Some are found quickly. Some take years to find. Volcanoes, trees, oceans, clouds and metal. Examples of the 5 elements that create the world. But how would we know this? Observing. Just sitting back and getting a clear view of not only your life, but the world. This allows us to create for ourselves and for others. You can determine things like, who you are, what to do, when to act, where to go, how to accomplish and most importantly, why things happen. And its very little work for those who may not be in favor of so much manual labor lol. Think about it. There is a world around you. And for a change, sit back and take a look at whats going on. |
12.12.04 |
SIGNS
All you have to do is look around, because they are all over the place. They describe what is there and are even used just to grab our attention and spark our curiosity. Wherever you notice them, they are there to let us know what is around us. When you walk, drive or fly. When you eat, shop or need shelter. They're everywhere. Sometimes, they are ignored. But if you pay close attention, surely you can find them. Food that smells bad. Animals making noise to warn others. A hot stove. Businesses that show no consistency or money loss. Even relationships have lack of communication or respect. Regardless, signs are there to help you. What is needed is to learn what they are and how to recognize them. Then you can show signs of the best thing, being able to live life. |
10.16.04 |
SEPARATE
Problems arise in life. That is just a fact. How you handle them is what is important. I am not safe from this. I have my problems like the next person, although considering what I chose as a career, some may beg to differ. How you handle them. You can either take them head on, or ignore them and have them affect you in time. Possibly worse than originally planned. One thing I have learned is to learn how to separate. Keep a distance between things. I use children as an example. When kids are behaving or influenced badly, you separate them to reduce the problem. I separate my business life from my personal. When I have problems, I tend to separate myself from the situation to see things from the outside. I look for signs that could be trouble. Im not perfect. Not at all. But I use separation to give myself a better chance to have a calm mind. Sometimes, it can be very difficult. You understand what can happen through separation, and may not like the outcome. I have gone through that recently. But if you feel it is for the better, than give it a chance. Things happen for a reason and fall into place with time. What happens in between, has a funny way of proving that separation brings things together. |
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ALONE
A world of so much, can leave you by yourself. Many things can be accomplished in a world filled with opportunity, love and life. Yet, with those precious qualities, to appreciate them, you must know the opposite. A variety of reasons can make a person feel alone or isolated. The world is harsh at times. And to some, being alone is a bad thing. Being alone creates self doubt and self hate. "Am I respected. Am I loved?" Being alone can really bother a persons train of thought. But what some fail to realize, is that when you are alone, YOU are the boss. You are the one who makes the rules. You can choose to wake up in the morning and be productive. You can choose to love or not to. When you are alone, you have the ability to look at the path your life is on or has taken. From there, you can decide who to be, what to do, when to start, where to go, why you should, and how to finish. In a world of +5 billion people, I am sure I am not alone. |
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HELPLESSNESS
At times you may feel that you are not able to share your view, lend a hand, or even be yourself. A sense of helplessness can be felt. That lack of control is not a good feeling. Honestly, with my life, I try to dominate in anything I do. It does not matter what it may be, I want control. I dont like to rely on anyone or anything, but myself. When things happen out of your control, they can sometimes hit you very hard. I am very diligent in protecting aspects of my life. My career, my personal life and my animal crackers. I am the one who normally helps when needed. I am the one who listens, who talks, and who watches. But still, I know I cant do it all. I know someone in need of help. Their situation is terrible and unfair. No matter what I do or say, I cannot change the situation. I feel helpless. And it sucks. But from this, I understand that you are never completely helpless, if you do not give up. I can continue to lend an ear, share a view, and support. That is what I am limited to, but I can still give that much. A friend once told me, "You look like you have the world on your shoulders." If you feel like this, take a minute to set it down and see what you can do from there. |
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FLOW
Rhythm, beat, cycle or life all seem to have it. That would be a flow. I describe it as a current or direction. Maybe even a form of momentum or a pace. In any case, there is a flow to everything. A wave can be 20 feet high, yet by the time it reaches the shore it can be a few inches tall. It was created and maintained by the flow of the water. A successful businessman fails miserably because of too much confidence. He failed because he disrupted the flow he had for creating and maintaining sucess. He created a new path for himself that did not flow the same as before. Flow is developed by the action taken. When I was younger, I would always say, "just go with the flow". I felt like if you accept things as they are, you can guide yourself accordingly. I find that sometimes when you disrupt your flow you can experience unwanted activity. I went through that recently. I was accustomed to a certain way things were, only to find out that things have changed. Rather than accepting them, I became extremely frustrated because of this. I didnt maintain the flow I had before this. So I paid for it with frustration and anger. You have the ability to create for yourself. "Go with the flow". |
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YOUTH
Remember that you are always your own person. Do not surrender your mind, heart or body to anyone. Never compromise your dignity."
"Never depend on others for your livelihood."
"Know evil, but do not do evil yourself." "Remember, there is a way out of the delusions of life. When you are weary of the world, find someone who will show you..."
Many young people think they know it all. That their lives are set. But nature has a way of changing lives. We cannot always get what we want. Sticking to the basic principals for living can save one the struggle of an ignorant life. You are only as young as you feel. When you waste energy, you get old very quickly. |
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ELDERS
We know there is a world in front of us. But how do we know this without those who came before us? Nature gave those before us the experience to continue life. And as we grow older, the cycle remains the same. Compassion. Guidance. Respect. Experience. Knowledge. All are qualities that mature when we grow older. Never forget to appreciate your elders. They gave us the opportunity to choose which direction to take our lives.
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8.13.04
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SUICIDE
This is a very touchy subject, which is NOT in any way promoting or condoning suicide. But it needs to be addressed. It is an act based off of behavior that can be preventable. But because it is a behavioral act, symptoms may be hard to find.
Untreated Depression is the humber one cause of suicide.
This can be brought on by many things such as personal loss, low self esteem or a traumatic event. It can also be genetic, which sometimes shows no symptoms. In any event, it is something that can be prevented and helped. I know it is a common thought among teens and young adults. "It is the third leading cause of death for people 15 - 24". I can understand what emotions can lead you to think of those dark thougthts. I can because I have been there. When I was a teenager, just like anyone else, I was trying to figure out who I was and where I wanted to be. I always had the feeling I never belonged. I always had the feeling that the things that I did or were doing, at the time, were meaningless. My family was not perfect, but weren't terrible to me at all. School wasnt a bother to me, but I didnt want to be there. I felt alone. I felt angry. But I didnt understand why. Uncertainty creates a world of a emotion. I use to cut my arms and intentionally try to get sick. I remember writing what would have been my suicide letter to leave to my family. Oddly enough, a job I hated was what redirected my train of thought. For some strange reason, I always see death as a bad excuse for being late to something. I can understand what goes through your mind and can lead you to think of something so selfish. I was able to find things in my life that have meaning and help me become productive. I was able to turn things around, but sometimes things dont always work out for others.
A youth suicide (aged 15-24) occurs every 100 minutes.
Young people can become emotionally distraught rather easily and thus are vulnerable to suicidal thoughts.
For information on Suicide please go to www.preventsuicidenow.com If you are in need of assistance, please call 911 immediately or:
United States: 1-800-SUICIDE (784-2433)
Japan: 3-5286-9090
United Kingdom: 08457-90-90-0
ChildLine - for children and teens 0800-1111
Suicide is not an option for anyone. There is a reason you are here. I believe it is to live a life of your very own.
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KILLING
Easily understood, yet terribly misunderstood. To take a life. Unfortunately, killing is very common in todays world. Whether in war or mild conflict, killing seems to be an outlet. An outlet for frustration, anger, pain, or power. What many forget is that it is a final solution to survival. Not a selfish and extremely weak excuse. Animals do not kill because they want money. They do not kill because they are living in a bad situation. They kill out of survival. To eat or to be able to get away from trouble. Humans are animals. They have the power to use logic and reason to determine their actions. We are the most gifted animals on earth. Unfortunately, that is lost in some. |
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8.13.04
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FATE
The supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events." Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes the results happen quickly. Some may take longer than others. Nonetheless, whether good or bad, things always seem to work themselves out. Some situations are mild, like falling down and scraping a knee. And sometimes they are extreme, such as losing a loved one. Recently, I saw a woman, named Christine Mcfadden. She had lost her children because of an ex husband. He had invaded their home while she was away, and shot and killed each of her 4 children. I remember listening to her claiming that from that point on, she didnt believe in all the lessons she was taught in life. She had lived an honest and good life. So why would she have to go through this? I wish I could answer this, but I cannot. From her loss, she also described that a date had been chosen for in the event she could no longer take the pain from her loss, it would be ok to commit suicide. I can understand the reason for her decision. She wants to be with her children. But one selfish act shouldnt be solved by another. Since then, she had begun a charitable organization in memory of her children. A charity described as one which would give a person a college scholarship the year her children would have attended college. Although her loss is great and can never be replaced, she was able to turn something tragic into something positive. The values that she taught her children are helping her create a more positive outlook for others. The values she said she doesnt believe in any longer. Life is definitely not fair, at times. But, with support, I believe you can outlast any obstacle or tragedy fate will put in front of you. |
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7.10.04
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WAR
When a conflict leads to violence as an attempted solution. Simple enough to understand. But as the saying goes, "with war there are no winners. Only losers." In World War II, 405,399 US Soldiers were killed or said to be missing. In the Vietnam War, 58,226 US soldiers shared the same fate. Currently, the united states is involved in a war in the country of Iraq. Since US operations were declared over in May of 2003, 740 US soldiers have died, 880 total. Anywhere from 5 - 10 thousand civilians have been reported dead since the war began. This is NOT a solution. Families and lives have been and are being destroyed because some think that this will fix a problem.
"...It is regrettable that weapons must sometimes be used, but occasionally, survival demands it. The wise go forth with weapons only as a last resort. They never rejoice in the skill of weapons, nor do they glorify war."
"...The regret of seeing human beings at their worst and the sheer pain of not being able to help the victims can never be redeemed. If you go peronally to war, you cross the line yourself. You sacrifice ideals for survival and the fury of killing. That alters you forever.
This is the description of war from
365 Tao. War is a cycle that becomes endless. Hate, death and destruction continually grow from each side. For those who protect us, putting them in harms way should always be A LAST RESORT, for they will see first hand the monster that is being created.
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7.6.04
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PERSEVERANCE
In order to conquer your fears, reach goals that sometimes may seem too far, or simply develop a lifestyle, you must use perseverance. "Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action, a belief, or a purpose; steadfastness" is the definition used at www.dictionary.com. If you look at the world around you , I am sure examples are there. Single mothers providing for their families so that they can benefit from better life opporunities. A few years ago, on a U.S. television show called "American Gladiators" a deaf woman, who became a great athlete, was featured as one of the superstars. On June 25 in New York City, a high school student named Tiffany Schley, was named as the valedictorian at the High School of Legal Studies. She had grown up with a speech difficulty. With the help of her mother and personal drive, she rose to the top of her class. She openly criticized her school for poor performance during her graduation speech. The administrators of the school denied her diploma shortly after. Tiffany was given her diploma after her situation was reported throughout New York City. Regardless of her speech problem, on top of the normal experience of being a teenager in today's society, AND having the same school that named her top of her class take her diploma away, Tiffany was able to overcome it all. Tiffany used perseverance to reach a new level of life. Now she is headed to Smith College on a full scholarship in August. You must be able to face your obstacles in order to suceed. Don't be afraid to challenge them and endure what comes with the challenge. You never know what you might achieve until you try. |
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6.6.04
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REASSURANCE
Being uncertain is challenging. Some say the future is already predetermined. Others say we can create and control our own destiny. Nonetheless, we are guaranteed 2 things, life and death. Simply put, we know there are 2 facts that are for certain. So we can have reassurance that they will happen. Reassurance is the restoring of confidence. A bear cub cries for its mother until she is beside it. A carpenter builds from morning until night, every day for a lifetime. The old saying, hard work pays offE is an example. Are you guaranteed your efforts will be? When? Yes, yet some may argue what the reward is. With time, every case is individual. Although the carpenter may never be discovered as a great craftsman, a lifetime of experience and knowledge can bring reassurance with any tool he may hold. Now read this slowly. You can experience a chance to restore your confidence with what you put into reaching it. |
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5.26.04
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TIMING
There is a time and a place for everything. You can play in the snow when it is cold. Dress nice when you go to a prom. Or win a game when you take the opportunity. Regardless of what it is, like the cliche states "timing is everything". Life is a cycle. In nature, things happen when the time is right. From one action, it will create the opportunity for others to occur. Depending on interpretation, it can be good or bad. But timing is a big part of moving forward. In business, the opportunity to grow and be productive is created when the right decisions are made when needed. In sports, wins and losses are determined by when the opportunity to gain the advantage is taken over the competition. Even in relationships. I have heard from many people, you will know when the time is right. Uncertainty and not knowing what will happen are parts of life. Becoming anxious, worried or frustrated over them will take you away from knowing when the time is right. If you choose to feel them, before you know it, your time may have passed. |
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5.2.04
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ANGER
It is possible to be at peace and happy for a majority of your life. But, at times, you will be taken off that level of peace and happiness. Misfortune, frustration, ignorance and depression may move you. The lack of control over these things may create anger. Becoming enraged or motivated to act in a destructive way is common. I know many people who are easily angered by things. I know people who need medication to control it. Anger is a very bad state of being. That negative energy creates more negative energy unless you can do something about it. I am not exempt from it. I get angry, probably more than I should. But I can control it. Some cannot. Some keep it to themselves until they begin to show signs of being stressed by it. Anger is a negative energy. It may be best to try to release it and get rid of it. Find what makes you happy. Find outlets that can get rid of that anger. Some people draw. Some read. Some exercise. Regardless, turn the negative energy into something beneficial to you. Before you know it, you may have forgotten what made you angry to begin with. |
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4.19.04
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HUMOR
There are so many things in life that will need you to be very disciplined. Many will need you to be strongly focused. Sometimes, you need a little break from that discipline and focus. Relax a little and allow yourself to laugh. Humor is a very powerful tool and quality. Being able to laugh is a relaxant. Being able to make people laugh is a great gift. Of course, meaning in certain amounts. Too much humor can cause problems, like when things are distasteful or offensive. Nonetheless, the ability to have a sense of humor is powerful. It can change a feeling of uneasiness, to that of calm, or delight. Even people use it to open the door for love. Many people use humor as a big factor to determine who they want to share their lives with. I have heard "he makes me laugh" or "she is really funny", alot. That seriousness is good to have, but not all the time. I'm sure many people would think for me to talk about humor would be out of line, considering what I present for a living. But,I can find the humor in that alone. |
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4.13.04
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HEARING
The world is telling you a story. A story of life. Do you understand the sound it makes? You can determine many things from this. You can tell if it is windy outside, if a car is working properly, if someone is in need and if you are in danger. You can learn by hearing. Understanding the story told may create a happy ending for you. |
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4.13.04
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LISTENING
There is alot that goes on in the world. Sometimes, so much you may tend to ignore certain things. A quality that many underestimate is listening, or trying to pay attention. Simply by listening the commotion around you, you can make a difference. Lending an ear to someone can be just as effective as giving advice. Being aware of the noise around you can keep you safe. Some may think listening is the same as hearing. One is an action. The other is an interpretation. There may be confusion with this entry, but before you can understand it, you have to pay attention to what you have read. |
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3.29.04
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RESTRAINT
All too often, bad energy seems to close off the world around us. Sometimes its the lack of control over situations. Other times, it can be a feeling of envy. And unfortunately, hate can also be a reason. Either way, it can hold life from moving forward. That is an example of restraint, in a negative way. Holding back what is trying to move forward. War is a big topic now. War is holding back peace and productivity. At home, many people argue over nonsense, a normal thing. But they are willing to physically and mentally hurt each other because of it. I have known too many people involved in domestic violence. Either as the aggressor or the receiver of the violence. I've known men who have taken violence from women, scratched, punched, kicked and bitten. That is just to name a few. I've seen women belittled. I've seen them hit. In the past 6 years, I have come to know more women who have been raped that my heart can handle. This can all be avoided by showing some restraint, which would be in a positive way. The old saying of "bite your tongue" is reference to restraint. Before you decide to act, determine what it is your doing. If it is a positive act, continue. If something negative, show some restraint. |
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3.19.04
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MATURITY
It is a sign of personal change. Some find it odd. Some find it sexy. But, overall it is a very important quality. Maturity, in people, is a very strange thing, sometimes. It can turn a child into and adult. Or, a person with no respect into someone who has it. Or even, a person with a weak mind into someone with a strong mind. In this case, it is the growing aspect of the mind. In reference to what the independent environment is in pro wrestling, today, maturity is a very short in supply. A major part of it has to do with the young age of the wrestlers. Still young and ambitious, those qualities older more experienced people have, may not be present. So, things can occur that show the level of maturity. Openly criticizing people because they are different or have different views. Always trying to prove how tough you are by physically, mentally or verbally bullying people. Or even, in my case, impulsively lashing out at people in an instant. If the resources arent available to you, meaning mentors or people with more experience and knowledge, look around. Examples are everywhere. Maybe not in your environment, but they are in others. I wanted to share something with you that I thought was pretty interesting. It isnt an example towards a pro wrestler, but an example for people, in general. Although it involves a current pro wrestler, I think it is more of an example of realization, challenge, and most importantly maturity. |
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3.7.04
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OPINION
It is a right of every person to have a point of view. What one person sees, may not be what the next may see. That is one quality that makes us special. We can develop our own opinion of what things mean to us. Parents want their children in bed by a certain time. Naturally, the child may have a different opinion on that little idea, lol. Or business partners may want to do different things with their business. Ultimately, they must agree on what happens with the business, to succeed. But, the different views may help out the final agreement. It is good to have your own opinion. Some may share the same views as you, but at least you can determine what things mean to you on your own. Don`t be afraid to have an opinion. If you have one, and you feel it has strong value to you, stand tall and support it. It may not be what everyone else shares, but it doesn`t make you wrong. You are entitled to your own opinion. It may not be an opinion of everyone else, but that is mine. |
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3.4.04
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RISK
With reference to the recent entry of `Common Sense`, that easy tool will help you determine the level of risk involved in a decision. Risk is the possibility of loss. I understand that some decisions will be made in life with that risk, but I feel that common sense can help you reduce that possibility. If the stove is hot, touching it will burn you. You decide whether to use a cloth to remove a pot, to avoid being burned. This is the decision you make. A simple scenario of whether or not you want to be burned. Take the right steps in order to avoid misfortune of being burned and you can continue with what you were doing. Sometimes that ability of common sense is clouded by bad qualities, like greed, arrogance or ignorance. Those can cloud simple judgement and open the door for risk. Millionaires taking underhanded ways to increase their money or popular people believing they can have anything they want, just because of who they, are examples. I guess ignorance falls hand in hand with those examples. That ignorance is created by the bad quality and increases the amount of risk. So I would believe that simplifying your judgement can help you reduce the amount of risk, that may be invovled in your decisions. Not rocket science, but I think it can be something to think of. |
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3.2.04
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COMMON SENSE
It takes great thinkers to create inventions to affect the world. It takes only the common person with common sense to affect life. Today, people think so much that it seems to be a burden, or a bother. They want to analyze and criticize subjects beyond recognition. Currently in the U.S., there is a big uproar about gay marriage. The other nite, I watched a panel of debaters argue over it and it went on and on and on. It went on because they kept thinking about the `what ifs`. A person had called in stating his child was part of a gay relationship and was raising two children who were adopted. He said they were all healthy, physically and mentally, so why would the panel continue to argue. The panel drifted away from the statement quickly and pretty much disregarded the mans statement. The mans statement was pretty simple, at that. Common sense will help you live. If you are hungry, you eat. If you are tired, you sleep. If you are cold, you find what will keep you warm. People forget that common sense is a basic, general train of thought. If you are hungry, then eat. Not if you are hungry and gay, or fat, or old then you cant eat. Pro fighters seem to drift away from that helpful tool as well. You make your living fighting. Why on earth would you jepeordize that by fighting in the street or doing things that can put your living in danger? Common sense will lead you to your basic necessities. Thinking so much that your judgement can be clouded is not a helpful tool. Monkeys use tools to help them in their lives. Humans are no different. One of the greatest basic tools for a person comes in the form of common sense. Why would you not use that? |
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2.6.04
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SAFETY
I'm not very sure how to start with this entry but I will give it a shot. I believe many people are more comfortable knowing that they are safe, not having to deal with the worry and stress of uncertainty. Whether physically, mentally, spiritually or otherwise, that sense of safety allows people to develop and live. Unfortunately, not everyone share that view. It is very sad to know that people would intentionally hurt others for personal gain or self gratification. A little girl was abducted from a parking lot a few days ago. It was caught on videotape and the person suspected of being involved was brought into custody quickly. The person did not want to cooperate with police. The minute I had heard that, I could not think anything other than the worst. Unfortunately, my personal feeling came true. The little girls body was found this morning. It is a very scary thought to have when you know that their are people who will do these things at random, and with little or no motivation. We have a national safety advisory to let us know of terroristic threats to the country. We have newscasts to tell us about bad weather coming and crosswalk signs that warn us when not to cross the street. Those are things that help out with that sense of safety. It is like an equation. You need the 2 parts of the equation to create a result. The warning plus the attention and reaction you give, creates the result. I guess what I am trying to say is that we have to really care about our safety to live safely. Kids shouldn't have to have these realities. Parents shouldn't have to have those worries. If you have people you care for in your life, including yourself, try and make sure that they are safe. You don't have to go overboard, but show that you do care and take the steps to make sure thats sense of safety can be realized. |
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1.27.04
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SELF IMPRESSION
It is easy to comment or form an opinion of something or someone. But before you do that, look at yourself first. How do you feel about yourself? Are you happy just being you? What qualities do you have that make you special? Everyone is, that isn't a matter. Everyone has something about them that separates them from the next person. A lot of people think they aren't special and form bad feelings towards themselves. Sometimes, it is from others who make them feel bad or from bad personal experience. That just develops a chain of events that lead to even worse things, such as self hate and depression. That doesn't have to be. Just like when a child gets a new toy. The childs imagination takes over to explore the new possibilities with the toy. That can be used with self impression. Find things about yourself that you can capitalize on. Are you a serious person? Then look at what makes you laugh, then laugh. Do you like the way you look? Find out what it is you dont like, then mess around with it. Trying different clothes, exercise, make up or eating differently. You can change all the things you dont like about yourself to become the things you do like about yourself. Look at the 2 words. Self Impression. Find out what you like and Impress yourself. |
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1.27.04
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PERSPECTIVE
Its a great feeling to have things going for you. And when things aren't going so well for you, a not so great feeling. Yet understanding that all things happen for a reason or will fall into place will help you keep things in perspective. A common American phrase that means to maintain an impartial or unbiased view. Understand the view of things that are involved in a situation. 2 people fighting over things that aren't really a big deal is an easy example. I got an email from a fan one day. He was upset about a friend seeing a girl that he had liked. The friend began seeing her knowing he had liked her. He was upset about it and unsure of what to do about it. He asked me what I had thought. I had an outsider's perspective about it. I wasn't involved but I understood it because I have experienced that before. I asked if he wanted to remain friends. He wasnt sure, so I had suggested talking things out. He did and emailed me back to let me know that they remained friends. I'm still a normal person. I go through my ups and downs like any other person. But I try to maintain that perspective that I do have a very good life. For the most part, I am healthy. I am able to support myself and my family. And I do have people who care for me. Those are good things. I dont have financial security. Health is always a concern. And, I can't have a dog. Well that just sucks. But, I know that, in time, I can and will be able to manage things better. I can continue to experience things to gain the knowledge I need in life. I can see that it isn't all that bad. I figure, having your health, family and ability to think for yourself, you are in pretty good shape. What would be your take on that? |
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1.16.04
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OPPORTUNITY
The chance to better yourself, your life, those around you comes but every so often. But with hard work and determination, it can be more frequent and plentiful. Opportunity is what is needed for things to occur. Buy a lotto ticket, and opportunity to win is there, slim yes, but still there. Score high on the SAT's. Study your butt off and it may happen. Taking the test is your opportunity. That can get you into the schools you desire and make the courses you would want more available to you. Value and appreciate your family. Your relationship with them will work depending on how you handle the opportunities. Visit them, talk to them, listen to them. The opportunities are there for a better relationship, take them. Your effort for opportunity is important. As the saying goes "Opportunity knocks". Its up to you if you will answer. |
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1.16.04
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MENTOR
If you think about the knowledge and characteristics you have, as a person, how do you think they came about? Or more importantly, who helped you develop them? A person that you look up to, admire, care for greatly, trust and/or appreciate for having involved in your life? A person who is able to guide you and teach you? That person would be a "MENTOR". Teachers and parents are mentors, when you are a child. When you grow older, you will determine who will be your mentor or mentors. I had a few when I was growing up. I had a basketball coach, who aside from helping with basketball, helped me learn about what is important in life. I also had a martial arts instructor, who helped me learn about the difficult realities in life, while at the same time throwing me half way across the room. And I had Homicide and Jim Kettner in pro wrestling. They have taught me things to help me in the ring, but moreso, they have taught me extremely valuable things in life to keep me safe. Regardless of who it may be, in this role, value their presence. Anything that they help you with and can make you stronger, whether physically or mentally, is a blessing. You have someone who is in your corner giving you the gift of knowledge. Value them. Appreciate them. They are not always going to be there. |
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12.28.03
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HUMBLE
I am a very proud person. I take what I do very seriously and with high regard. But at the same time, I must be humble. I need to take a step back, and see what is happening. I have abilities that help me in my career. I have people who respect what I do. I have people who appreciate what I do. I have people who care for me. Sometimes, pride is a problem. I sometimes take it too seriously that it becomes a factor in my judgement. Im not perfect, Im human, but I still understand that it is still important to be humble. I am still the same person I was before I began wrestling. I am the same person when the bell rings to end a match. Some tend to forget that about themselves. Learn of what you produce and receive back. It may be a very humble experience.
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12.28.03 |
COMMUNICATION
It is what determines many things. You can get that job that you have wanted. You can finally get a date with the person you have a crush on. Regardless of what it is, it is necessary to have communication. Many times, it is the only reason for things to fall apart, like relationships or business. If everyone is able to understand each other and respect each others views, success is more of a possiblity. I am in a business where communication is very important. I look to have that, in order to make a successful relationship and business. But it doesnt always turn out that way. I have had bad relationships throughout my career, and lack of communication was a part of it. To understand all that is going on is important. Talk to find a solution. Talk to understand what you need to know. In life, communication is needed. If you dont understand what I mean, talk about it.
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12.1.03
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IMAGINATION
An endless world that you always control." Some people claim not to have one. Some claim to have an overactive one. Regardless, everyone has it. You are allowed anything you want. Does not matter what it may be. You want to be able to fly? Or even be able to be the strongest in the world? Its all up to you. You can create a world for yourself where you control every aspect. Sounds pretty cool doesn't it? Some have an advantage , but its only because their minds are more experienced. Not better. It can lead to a reality, also. We have computers, airplanes, and spaceships because of it. Someone in the past, imagined it. And now we have them. So we can create these really cool things right here in our own heads. Imagine that.
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TIME
What has 2 hands and flies? An old riddle that has value in todays world. Time is something that everyone has, but may have difficulty managing. Much can be accomplished in a short amount of time, but if you are indecisive, your time is running out. Today's world is very fast and on the go. There doesnt appear to be enough time to do what we want. But, I think, there is plenty of it. I think the way you WANT to live will depend on the way you HAVE lived. Meaning, that what you have done in the past will effect your future. Simple enough. Work hard, be honest, cautious and planning ahead will ease your future, for the most part. Lying, cutting corners, being ignorant will create difficulty for you in the future. You dont have to let your time waste away. You can learn how to manage it and benefit from it greatly. But if you dont, then you have a good chance of letting it pass you by. Sometimes, you can get some breaks that will help you out, but they dont always come. Only you can tell what you will do with your time. Then what will happen? Time will tell. |
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10.27.03
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PROFESSIONAL
Just because you get paid, it doesnt make you a professional." The name "Professional" is used as a term to show what level of experience or technique a person has at a certain task. Like a professional plumber or a professional architect, the label given describes who they are in the specific field. But all it is, is just a label. It is up to the individual to carry the label with meaning. A person can be labeled as a professional plumber, but not ,necessarily, fit the term. He may always be late. He may always lack good quality work. He may even present himself in a way that is not appealing to his customers. But, he still will get paid. With the term, comes responsibility. Kind of like in "Spiderman", "with great power, comes great responsibility". That plumber can always be on time. Can always work with great quality and ethic. And make himself more appealing to customers to generate more business. He will never bring himself down in the view of his customers, or devalue himself. And he will also be paid. But the difference is, there will be a better chance of continuing due to the responsibility being taken. Show great responsibility for your choices, then your not just getting paid.
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10.25.03
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STRESS
How does it feel to take a deep breath and know that your life is working out the way you want? Do you know? I dont think many do, although they most likely should. Many become so tangled in the methods of todays mind, that they allow their self control to fall apart. They become stressed out. They worry. They become anxious. They have self doubt. They dont trust. They do trust, but when it is clearly not in their favor. All forms that contribute to the creation of stress. Now you become so worried, you cannot think straight. Or become so anxious about bad things, that you're unable to eat or sleep. Another common aspect of today's world, that seems to be so powerful it can stop your momentum for self improvement. You do not need stress in your life in order to live. You dont need it in order to be happy. You do not need it to watch a movie, or dance, or smile. Then why let it become a part of your life? I would compare life's stress, to eating ice cream. You can enjoy your ice cream(life) if you eat it, without wasting too much time. Meaning you dont allow it to waste away. But if you do take too long, it will melt away(life) and you will have a mess in your hands(stress). Meaning you have allowed it. Now you have wasted money, dirtied yourself and dont have ice cream to eat. Dont let your ice cream melt, eat it and enjoy it while you can. Now after you have enjoyed it to the last lick, take that deep breath. See if you know the difference.
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10.25.03
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WORRY
The world is yours." Famous visual statement from the movie "Scarface". That is true, to an extent. Meaning, that it is in your control. It is in your control, but not your full control. So what happens when things are out of your control? A more common way of dealing with lack of control, in todays era, is worry. Worry about the possibilities. The "what if's". What if I dont pay my rent on time? What if I dont receive a call from a loved one? What if I dont study for an exam? That worry is very dangerous. It can cause alot of mental and physical disruption. That simple act can be so powerful, if you allow it to be. "IF" you allow it. You do not have to have it in your life. There is no benefit. It causes stress which affects many different parts of your life. So then why allow it? There is a saying ; "easier said, than done." That is very true. But, does not mean impossible to change. If you truly believe in yourself to continue forward for the better of yourself, then its easier done, than said. No wasted time, no additional stress. Now what? Dont worry about it.
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10.24.03
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LEARNING
Truly great teachers are difficult to find. But when found, they can create a whole new world of knowledge, for those who seek it. But how do they become great teachers? They learn. The difference between good and bad. The difference between wants and needs. Know those, and your life may benefit incredibly. But how would you know these things? You learn. Life isnt easy. Nor is it fair at times. But learn how. Of course, it will take time. Sometimes, the lessons are very clear. If you smoke, you have a good chance of having bad health. But sometimes, the lessons aren't. Study for 20 years under one teacher, only to be told you havent learned anything. How do you know if what you have studied can be applied? You learn through observation and self experience, rather than by someones word. Its tricky sometimes. But what you can come out with can be amazing. Lesson taught, lesson learned.
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10.18.03
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CHANGE
Nothing lasts forever." Whether it be created by man or nature, change is inevitable. A seed grows into a small plant,then a tall tree, and then returns to the ground when it dies. Throughout its life, it will go through changes in nature. Sometimes the changes are subtle and not noticable. Sometimes they are very drastic and have strong impact. Either way, change filled its life. The same can apply to people. You are born. Then, you live as a child, free to imagine and play. You begin to grow into a young adult, physically and mentally. Then, you become an adult, with the responsiblities of self. The changes in your life can be good sometimes, but also bad. Whichever it may be, change has occurred. I would think the result of change relies on the person it happens to. You can make the best of it, if you choose!! It does not mean something has to end for good or is even going to end. I have gone through many changes. Personally and professionally, I have experienced many different things because the world around me changed over time. Imagine how boring things would be if we didnt have this. Although change may be seen as a bad thing, at first glance, change appears to have better results over time. Knowledge and experience are always gained through change. Some may like it. Some may not. To understand it, changes must be made.
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10.6.03
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REACT
Life puts many things in front of you. Sometimes you will have time to think about what you will do. Or you may be forced to move forward on instinct or impulse. What you are doing is creating the second part to a formula. Something happens, an act. Then you move forward because of it, you react. The outcome is the result of the combination. When I was younger, 2 animals stressed the 2 extremes of "react". The tiger and the dragon. The tiger, beautiful and powerfully built, represented instinct, fast and strong, yet blind. Meanwhile, the dragon, majestic and slender, represented subtlety and precision. One moves on impulse. One, on thought. Yet both will stand to react. You can move forward in life, which will represent you?
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10.6.03
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CONTROL
Life does not always seem to be easy. Things happen in life that make it difficult to continue on. War, hate, greed, addiction, pixie sticks. These are all things that can make it hard to live, but at the same time they can be managed. War is something that can be avoided. Hate is something that can be educated. Addiction is something that can be counceled. And pixie sticks, well just put them some place high so nobody can reach them. In any event, these are subjects you have control over. People get caught up, in there lives, with things that disrupt their natural "flow". Sometimes they become overwhelmed, then feel helpless. Thats when stress from not having control begins to affect the mind. The "unknown" is very scary to some people. I know many people who think they are having problems in their lives and suffer because of them. Yet, they dont realize that they are in control of their lives, to some extent. The weather, nature, and free will. Those are things you don't have control over. But aside from that, we have the ability to create our own roads and walk down them. We can control our futures, with the resources and opportunities that we can create. A simple example is a tv. You turn it on, and can control what it is you would like to watch. If you aren't interested, change the channel. Either way, you are the one in control. The same goes for life. You find what you like, if you look. If not, change the channel!
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9.21.03
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PRIDE
A sense of one's own proper dignity or value; self-respect. Pleasure or satisfaction taken in an achievement, possession, or association: parental pride." Many people go about their business or daily activities without allowing natural emotion to join them. When people do things do they always feel good about the things they have done or accomplished? Family members who are working their ways out of big money problems. Or friends who are really having things fall into place now after many rough times. People, you work with, accomplishing things that are rarely done. Do they feel proud? That would be a question to ask them. But, would you be proud of them? I know people in each category. I will be more open about the third sentence. A.J. Styles, Spanky, and Alexis Laree are examples. Spanky is one of the funniest around but also a hard worker. He began with a good start, training in Shawn Michaels school, WWF developmental program, U.S. Independents,Zero one in Japan, then the WWE. A.J. Styles, current NWA World Champion, simply labled as "Phenomenal". He is one of the best in the world at what he does and one of the few that falls into a class all by himself. Finally, Alexis Laree. She has been a woman pro wrestler on the U.S. Independent scene, that just continues to prove who she is, a very talented and positive pro wrestler. Now she is on her way to the WWE. Just like Charlie Haas, Spanky, Nathan Jones, and Paul London, I can only wish her the best. Im proud of all of them. I know all kinds of good people in pro wrestling. Im blessed to be apart of special things, with all of these people, in the one thing I am pretty good at in life. I'm proud of who they are. I'm proud of who they've become. I'm proud of my own accomplishments, but only for a second because I know there is more work to be done. It is good to feel proud of things. It is another natural quality that doesn't make life seem so impossible at times. Find out where your pride stands, then stand tall.
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9.19.03
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FUN
A very close friend always told me "make sure you have fun with what you do, or else it will become just a job." For years, my approach to pro wrestling was 100 percent seriousness and focus. But, while that happend, I became very boring, in a sense, with myself. I would approach pro wrestling as "here is what I have to do. Now I will do it this way and thats it." After awhile, that is done over and over so much, it kind of makes you feel like your in a rut. While the approach I had taken worked for me, I feel in a way, it may not work forever. So, in time, I started to loosen up. Instead of going in with the "kill then comfort" approach, I began to understand what I do and how to do it. Because I have a better understanding, I can enjoy what I do more. When its time to be ready for action, I am ready. When it isn't, then I know it is time to separate myself from what I do and enjoy life outside of the ring. This past tour in Japan, aside from the jaw breaking thing, I had alot of fun. When it came time to fight, I was ready. When it wasn't, I was ready to have fun.
I think that was pretty apparent considering a water balloon fight, wait let me rephrase that, a water balloon war, broke out. It pitted the Merry Band of Heels (MBOH) versus the younger less experienced members of our foreigner group. MBOH members include Steve Corino, C.W. Anderson,referee D. Mack, and myself. The others included Vansack Ayasit, Josh Daniels, and Samoa Joe. Joe is a member of the MBOH, but he decided to venture off away from the pack. Well the war had broken out and it carried all over. It began on the 11th floor, carried to the 10th, balconies, elevators, fire exits, and even a street fair about 10 minutes away. Highlights inlcuded Vansack Ayasit screaming like a banshee while running down the 11th floor hallway to avoid getting hit. As well as, Josh Daniels masquerading as a mild mannered pro wrestler, but was actually a decoy while his associates crept into position for attacks. It also included such underhanded tactics as using one of the Japanese shootfighters as a decoy to open the hotel room door so that they had access to attack us. Well that sat well with me. As I stood, retaliating with strong hope for success, yet being demolished with waterballoons, underhanded tactics call for underhanded tactics. Van simply screamed like a girl loud enough for the people 2 floors down to hear, Joe jumped sides, and Yokoi! Yokoi of all people is one of the nicest guys on the planet, he'll kill you in the ring, but still one of the nicest guys on the planet. No ones gonna hit him! Thats just wrong! So, cool , calm and collected, without skipping a beat, I did what I had to do. Waterballoons were being filled with soap, which was courtesy of the hotel, as well as, hot water. Needless to say , there were alot of broken waterballoons, some soap, lots of water and broken pride after the truce had been called. Regardless of why I was actually there, I had tons of fun. Something alot of people don't seem to either do or believe in while doing things. I always have in the back of my mind to have fun with what I do. I don't want to have "just a job".
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9.10.03
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ADVERSITY
More than likely, you will face things in life that you don't expect and/or don't want. Its all how you deal with it. Life is full of challenges and tests. Your reaction to these will determine your future. In school, you get suprised with a math test. Or, a small child loses track of his or her parents and comes to you. Even getting injured unexpectedly. Its the way you handle the situation, meaning, if you are going to turn it into a positive or negative experience. This has been the worst summer I have ever had. But at the same time, I have been able to do things that havent made it as bad as it sounds. I got something good out of the situations of being hurt. That kind of takes the bad part away. I relaxing more and working more around the house with things that have needed work on. Simple, but not negative. I cant talk much because my jaw is wired shut, but my other senses are picking up the slack. So things arent all that bad. If you ever are faced with what you think is a bad suprise, try to make the best of it. It might turn out to be the challenge or test you needed to become better.
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8.31.03
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PASSION
When you find something in your life that has value to you and you want to reach it with great intent, you tend to develop passion. Tonite was the first nite I believe I had truly seen my passion. I defended my Zero One Jr International Title against Wataru Sakata's Tenkai Chi Championship. We battled furiously throughout the match. I have a broken jaw from the fight, but it wasnt a matter to me. When the bell rang, and I was not declared the winner, I lied on my back. With a doctor, referee and fellow fighters standing over me, I felt I had given alot. My passion carried me through a very demanding match. But in defeat, I felt that the outcome wasnt a matter. I proved myself as a fighting champion. I proved to myself that this is what I want. I have said this before, "Passion breeds opportunity". My passion to be a pro wrestler has driven me to the other side of the world and I am able to experience things I had only dreamed of before. What opportunities are you passionate to gain?
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8.30.03
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FEAR
Can you say that you live your life freely each day without fear? Some may or may say so to look impressive. But as a common aspect of human nature, fear is only a state of mind. People develop fears from all kinds of ways. Bad experiences from a younger age, present tragedies or even just witnessing the misfortune of someone other than yourself. Im sure there are more, but these are some examples of where fears may develop. Although those seem common, one that is more common than those is the fear of the unknown. People have fears of things they have never experienced in their lives. Some people are afraid of airplanes, or swimming in the ocean. Some are afraid of spiders. And even though that last one isnt on my "things to do" list, all of them can be overcome. Confronting the unknown gives you the experience that may allow you to overcome your fears. When I was a kid, I was scared to death of the lead character from the "Nightmare on Elm Street" movies. I would always have nightmares and be afraid of watching the movies. I was able to stop that after watching one of the movies and when I did begin having a nightmare again, in my dream I confronted him (beat him up) and that was the end of the fear. Some fears are more serious than others, like ones that really stop people from living their lives. But I think that given the chance to confront your fear, you have an even better chance of overcoming it. It might be a good gamble. What are you afraid of?
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CARELESSNESS
Can you take care of yourself? If the answer is no, will you learn how? If the answer is yes, are you sure? Which ever is your answer, do you have the ability to make sure you are taken care of? The answer is in the word itself. Care-less, less-care, whatever. Before anything in life, you are living a life of "your" own. Not anyone elses. I would think that taking care of yourself is priority over anything else. Make sure you are healthy. Make sure you are happy. Make sure you have a playstation 2 (its so much better than xbox). Learn what it will take to make sure you can continue in your life. Learn what you need in your life to simply live. With that taken care of, maybe you can "care less" about the things you dont need.
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2003 |
LIES
Lying will get you nowhere. Believe me when I tell you this, IT IS TRUE! Im no angel. I am human. I have done my share of fibs, half truths, little white lies, and lies. Anyhow, honesty IS the best policy. You will get caught up. Some are better than others at it, but either way it isnt good. It hurts those who its done to, and moreso, to you. The stress of knowing the lie, trying to keep it going and exposing it are all bad. The truth is good all around. You dont need to worry of anything further because the truth is there and clear. Nothing more, nothing less. The negative energy eats away at your natural energies. It brings you down. The truth may hurt sometimes, but at least there is nothing more and you can recover. The lie will bring down energy, emotion, thought and spirit. It is something that you can live without if you choose. The truth will surface eventually.
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8.11.03
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ACCOMPLISHMENT
Reach for what you want or else you will never get it. Simple enough to say, but may be a different story when trying it out. Regardless, reaching that goal or accomplishing what you want will give satisfaction and experience. You wanted it, you got it, you can do what you want with it, yet know that it has given you experience to move on. I have worked hard for what I have wanted. I was able to realize a dream of mine through my methods of work. I was able to team with the person I had admired most in pro wrestling. I teamed with Keiji Mutoh, well his alter ego, Kokshi-Muso. Regardless, I had accomplished a dream. I did through long hard work and it did pay off. I am satisfied I had been able to accomplish this, but more so, I have gained experience from this. This experience has given me confidence to continue. Confidence to continue what makes me happy. This does not need to apply to pro wrestling. Life in general is a good platform to try this. Notice what it is that you want. Then do what you can to reach it. If you reach it, you can be satisfied from the act of accomplishing it, but you may even benefit more from the experience you gain from it. Sometimes, you may actually not like what you have reached. But, now you have gained the experience that can help you accomplish and reach what you do want. Give it a shot.
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2003 |
AGGRESSION
Hostile or destructive behavior or actions, according to dictionary.com, is a definition of aggression. This is a delicate word. Sometimes, it is used as a positive characteristic. But, a more common use would be as a bad thing. Violence is an act of aggression. Anything that is knowingly used as a characteristic to disturb peacefulness, is aggression. In life, you will face or create this characteristic. Some people have medical conditions that need the help of others. In any case, it is a trait that, if not controlled, can lead to bad things. I have dealt with it all my life. Growing up in a military environment will present that. I carried it throughout my life. I have also faced it, numerous times. Learn from and how to control aggression. It may bring you some peace... of mind. |
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7.22.03
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RETURN
The old saying goes, "you never know what you've had until it is gone." This past 2 months has been very troubling, concerning this statement. To begin with, I had been injured. This stopped me from doing what I love to do, wrestle. I also had some personal problems. Losing the trust of those, who hold you in high regard, is a very powerful thing. I am not perfect. I dont try to be. I am human, although some may argue. I make mistakes, like anyone else. But, when I'm troubled, I return to what makes me unique. The aspects I know about myself that help me grow and learn. Regardless of what it is in life, everything seems to return to the beginning. In nature, seasons and water. In the human world, knowledge, emotion and even businesses. At one point or another, everything eventually returns to the origin. I am content that I have been able to make my return, in these aspects. Now, I return to my origins, to recreate once again.
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7.7.03
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HELPING
I know in order to be happy, you must do what you can for yourself. But what if that involves doing for others? When you do things that will ease or relief outside situations, your helping. Doing that "good deed for the day" is, normally, a good thing. Its good all around. Even good for you spiritually. Its an act that creates good energy. Not everyone experiences the same things in life. Some people dont have the luck others do, or even the basic things needed to live. Of course, please be cautious on what or who your trying to help out, to avoid something bad. But,whichever it may be, see if you can lend a hand. The result may surprise you. |
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7.7.03
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LETTING GO
The past is a strange thing. Your memories come from it. It shaped who you are today. But why do we hold on to it with such strong feeling? The experiences that bring you here today are so powerful, people dont want to let go of them. Just being a kid, being with your family, or having your first kiss. Someone you know passes away, fighting, or having your heart broken. Whichever they may be, we all seem to hold onto them. Sometimes people allow them to be so strong that they can affect their lives at the moment. People with fears or insecurities allow this. People with good past experiences, sometimes, seem to want to continue them and develop unproductive routines in life. In order to move forward in life, letting go of some things may help us more than anything. Learn what makes you happy, let go of the rest.
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6.25.03
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APPRECIATION
Look around you. What do you see? Are the things you see, everyday things that you pay no mind to normally? I am not talking about material things. I am talking about the basic needs in life. Food, shelter, clothing and caring. Those 4 things can help you survive as a person. Clothing and shelter are your protection. Food and caring are your sources for growing. Being able to grow and feel protected are very strong processes. How do you feel about them? Are you even aware of them? Do you have them? Most importantly, do you appreciate them? "You never know what you have until it is gone." is a very true cliche'. Learn to appreciate the things that have helped you become and continue to be you.
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6.25.03
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SPITE
When you do things, what makes you do them? Do you do them to better yourself? Or is it to prove you are better? When things are done, I feel that they are done for one of the 2 reasons. Children are perfect examples of this. When they play with a toy, they become happy. When they see another person play with the toy, they have the impulse to take the toy and play with it. That is still a tactic used by older people today. I have seen it personally. I have done it. The definition of it is" An instance of malicious feeling". Businesses are notorious for this. I believe people like develop into living their own way. I dont like being told what to do. So if I am bothered or pressured, I will do the opposite on occasion. I still see myself as a big kid. But I do understand what I do. The point I am trying to make is to remember the reasoning that you do the things you do. Maybe when the purpose of what you do is understood, it may be time to grow up. |
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6.14.03
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ENERGY
Everything that is alive is alive because it has something that keeps it functional. Whether good or bad, the living thing has its own source of engergy. Many things can affect which kind of energy that it gives off. A source of productive or positive energy will help it survive. A source of destructive or negative energy will kill it. The same applies to life. The more your surrounded by an environment that fits to your needs to be productive and positive, you will have the ability to do better for yourself. If you are surrounded by the things that bring down your emotions and lead you to do the things that will not help you at all, then you will be less fortunate. I can only speak from personal experience when I say "You + Good Surroundings = Production/Positivity". And "You + Bad Surroundings = Destruction/Negativity. You can control where you would like to be and in return, it will then control your energy.
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6.14.03
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DECISIONS
There are not many situations in life that you do not have to think about which action to take. In the morning, wake up and decide what you want to do for the day. When eating food, which is better food for you to eat? Or even, what is it that makes you happy? Whichever thought is in your favor, you have to decide what it is. When faced with problems, what you decide to do about them, will give you an end result. Being frustrated, annoyed or upset about things you face can be changed. But that is only if you decide to handle things differently. Many people get caught up in things that may have little to no affect towards them at all. It all depends on what you decide to feel and do about them. Someone happens to cut you off, while driving, then allow them to get by without retaliating. People voice their opinions about you, or things concerning you, that you may not like? Dont give them the satisfaction of reacting to them. People are allowed to have their opinions. But, if they are based on false fact or misunderstood, the truth is all that might be of any concern to you. A decision will give you 2 results, one in your favor or one not in your favor. You decide which is it that you want.
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6.9.03
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DEDICATION
What would you like to happen in your life? Not everyone becomes aware of it, but you do know that you are in control, don't you? If a farmer wants to grow a field of vegetables, he wakes up everyday and takes care of his land. Planting and caring for his crop, he now has food. A lion defends the pride(group) to make sure their land is not in any danger. The farmer and the lion are dedicated to their goal. They are willing to do what they can to reach the purpose of what they are doing. I was able to reach what I wanted to do. I trained hard, learned what I could and presented myself to others in order to get to Japan. I dedicated myself to reaching that goal. I hear people say many things that seem to border being wary of dedicating themselves. I hear "I'll try" alot. That is good for a start, but not for a finish. You can try to eat well. You can try to stop smoking. You could stare at your friend until one of you blinks or cracks up laughing. All that is good, but the difference is, are you doing it? Eat healthy. Stop smoking. Stare at the middle of the eye brows(that works for me). Now your dedicating yourself to the purpose of your action. Now...what would you like to happen in your life? |
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6.9.03
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FORTUNE
A persons standing in life determined by material possessions or luck." Which would you think represents your fortune? Can you live without one? Can you live without both? It all depends on what you would consider your fortune to be. I believe I have a fortune.That would be my family. Its possesion, but not material. Is it luck? I dont think it is, but I do know some dont share the same as I do. Your fortune is what you hold dear. To some, those material things, like money or things that prove their wealth, are what they believe is their fortune. Some people can just say being free to make their own decisions in life. Or to be able to wake up in the morning every day. It all depends on what you believe makes up your fortune. I dont really think you need a little cookie to tell you that, lol.
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6.8.03
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VULNERABILITY
No matter how strong something is, there always manages to be the one point that can break it down. That is the point of vulnerability. Do not confuse that with being weak. People try to pass themselves off as being strong willed or headstrong to avoid being hurt by others or their own actions. I am no exception. I am human and I have my faults and weaknesses that can make me vulnerable. When things happen out of the control of a person, sometimes that feeling of vulnerability is very scary. It does not make you weak. Please dont think that. You ultimately have the power to change that point of vulnerability. There is nothing that can be done to change the past. But to learn to protect yourself from those openings, where you may feel out of control, is completely in your control. To know you are vulnerable may make you even stronger than you think.
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6.6.03
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DEPRESSION
It is understandable that things happen in life that are out of your control. Yet you must deal with them and move on. But, that does not mean that you will not be affected by what has happend. Animals experience emotion when something very traumatic happens, such as separation from groups or death. I am a little bummed out about what has happend to me. I've been separated from "the pack" so to speak. Im not able to train how I would like, or even sleep comfortably, so it has been bringing me down a bit. I will be ok. I will just allow time to take over and heal me so I can continue what I love to do. I feel kind of depressed about the whole thing, but it could be worse. I say the word "depressed" to represent how I am feeling at the moment. I dont use it to represent the illness. Depression is a serious illness. According to Community.netdoktor.com "Depression is very common. Almost anybody can develop the illness; it is certainly NOT a sign of weakness.Depression is also treatable." I know people who are or have been depressed. It is something serious that should be made aware to more people. For more information, please check out the website for the National Mental Health Association
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6.2.03
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REST
When a person becomes tired or worn, rest is needed to repair the body and mind. I guess the time has come for me to rest. I had a very demanding schedule, but that is only because I had wanted it. I love to work. Whether it be wrestling or an activity with no association to wrestling, I just like to find how it works and go with it. My body has gone through more than the average person, within the past year. I have been wanting a vacation to give my body a break from the abuse it has taken. I cannot wrestle because of a collarbone injury. Im not happy about it. But just the same, I am not upset. It happend. No more to it. While I am out, I now have the opportunity to do other things that my schedule has not allowed me. I am not use to doing this but I gladly accept the new experience because it is allowing me to heal and to open and ease my mind to new things while I am away from wrestling. I guess in a sense, rest is all I needed.
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5.5.03
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BELIEFS
A friend once told me, perception is reality. My interpretation to that is, What you believe becomes your world. A kid dreams of being a paleontologist, learning all about dinosaurs and fossils. A teenager wants to build a car piece by piece, beginning to work at a repair garage. A little mouse with a big head named Brain" wants to take over the world, and leaves his cage to do so. These are all examples of belief". The belief that you can reach something is a great feeling. All you have to do now is follow through with what needs to be done in order to reach it.
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5.5.03
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RELATIONSHIP
A common bond between 2 things creates a relation between them. The condition of that bond can determine the success of the relationship. A Bear and a cub have a relationship as mother and child. The mother supplies all that is needed until the cub can go on its own, only to continue the same path. Nature and a flower have a relationship. Nature supplies minerals, wind, water and light for the plant to grow and reproduce. In order for each to succeed, the relationship must be equally balanced. There is no waste and no worry. The relationship is fair to both sides.
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5.5.03
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THINKING
Some people do well at it. Others may seem not to even try. But thinking is a characteristic that separates us from other animals on this planet. We are born with this great advantage in order to create. Unfortunately, it can also destroy. Cars, planes, computers, twinkies. All results from well defined thought. War, mistrust, hate, the Cleveland Browns. All results from poor thought. Given the opportunity to analyze and plan something to better yourself is a trait that, in my opinion, should be appreciated. Something that can create a better life for yourself or others is something special. Think about it. |
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4.8.03
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CONFRONTATION
Life will challenge you. You may encounter situations that you must deal with. But confrontation does not have to mean self destruction. Some may do well with confrontation. Some may not. It is all in how you handle it. When you are dealt with a situation, what do you do? You may not be experienced to deal with the situation at first, but it does not mean all is lost. Everyone has characteristics to them. Just like fingerprints are never the same. So I believe that everyone has their own way of dealing with confrontation, and have the ability to change what could be a bad result. A bad situation does not need to get worse. Hopefully, you can turn it into a better one for yourself. As it has done to you, confront the situation and try your best to regain control if you dont have control. You may benefit from the result, such as new experiences and confidence. | |
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4.8.03
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OPTIMISM
The world is very big. Views, ideas, opinions may not always be the same. People see things differently. But what many tend to forget is to try a positive outlook on the world before them. Children are taught the phrase try , try again.EWhat exactly does that mean? What I gather is to continue trying at whatever you do to reach a goal. Religion, as well, uses sacrifice and dedication of your life to reach a certain goal, whether it be reaching heaven, nirvana, a better afterlife , etc. Those ideas are simple ideas, but are positive. They keep the idea of a better outcome, or positive outlook. It is easy to get involved into the world of stress and situations that will suck the life out of you. But that comes with the negativity you allow in your life. Allowing the positive things of life into yours can keep your views more optimistic and open your world wider than you can imagine. |
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4.3.03
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NATURE
Wood, water, earth, wind, fire. This is nature. What happens without rhyme or reason is natural. Mountains have ice that melts and the water creates streams and rivers. Flowers reproduce more flowers from wind and insects. People interact with each other and develop personality. These are all characteristics of nature. When people say "what will happen, will happen", they are acknowledging nature. Allowing things to occur without interference would be allowing nature to run its course. Nature does not have bad intent. Nature creates and destroys accordingly and without waste. Allow yourself to wake up one morning without being disturbed by an alarm or something else. You wake up naturally accepting the day ahead rather than waking up as if you are being confronted. Allow yourself to experience a day without planning, not necessarily stay in bed all day , but go about your business without expectation or planning. You may see how things fall into place or happen without your guidance. I believe without the natural element, people fall victim to a lot of the things in life that bring down your energies and inner desires, such as stress and non productivity. They may be more focused on less important matters, such as being absorbed into work so much there is little time to enjoy the benefits of working. Or even allowing themselves to be short tempered. These are the things that are unnecessary and unnatural. There is something that controls what happens to us and our surrounding. It is nature and what will happen, will happen | |
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4.3.03
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EFFORT
To achieve goals or things of your desire, is a great feeling. But how they were met depends on effort, or the use of the resources used in reaching the goal. Some people use strong effort to achieve things. Others may not and appear as if what is done is effortless. But to reach the one point or goal, effort is needed. People sometimes do not achieve desires because of lack of effort. It is easy to fall for the easier said than done" mentality, basically stating the it is easier to declare your action but not necessarily have the drive to apply what is needed to reach it. A person who wants to be a doctor must make an effort to graduate medical school. An athlete must make an effort to train so that his or her body can support what happens to it. A child must make an effort to climb the ladder to reach the top of a slide. Benjamin Franklin made an effort learning and experimenting in science to discover many things, like electricity. Susan B. Anthony made an effort to fight for womens rights. Michael Jordan made an effort towards bettering his skills in basketball and became one of the greatest ever. The goal is met through effort. It is the factor that may decide on how things will turn out and what will happen with you. Although things happen to determine outcomes differently, a strong effort has a better outcome than no effort at all. | |
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3.8.03
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DIRECTION
To be rewarded for action is pleasant. But the adventure lies in the journey before the reward. Having direction in life is something, I feel, is lost by many people. They do not have the one thing in their lives that makes them happy and keeps them productive throughout life. Whether it is low self esteem and value, or plain ignorance, many choose not to have direction and get involved in an unproductive and monotonous life. Some people thrive on having goals. Some do not. But to have a goal which directs your action can open your life up to experience you would not have imagined. I did not have direction when I was younger. I tried to experience things, but was left empty. Then I began my training. At the beginning there was no direction, but I kept busy. Then one day I just began to focus. Why not develop goals to work towards? So I did. And because of that, my life, although rather short, has been full of experience. Traveling the world. Meeting all kinds of people and encountering all kinds of new cultures and activities. And all because I was directed down this path from what I saw as goals. Having direction created experience for me. Having direction led me away from being non productive. So to have direction, from my own experience, is to open the door for experience and productivity in life. | |
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3.8.03
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PATIENCE
Regardless of what may happen in life, to have a clear mind to act is necessary. Patience is something that may not be ideal for some, but a way of life for others. In some religions, to be patient is necessary to reach an ultimate goal of happiness. To be patient is to see what is unseen. To be patient is to feel what is natural and to allow yourself to be guided by your inner strengths. Growing up I was very patient. Fairly carefree , and allowed myself to experience what came naturally. I am human, so as I grow older, I have taken on the common experience encountered into adulthood, where my patience has been tried over and over. I am no different than any other who has tendencies to get caught up in impatience and impulse. But, I do know better. To have a clear mind , I can accomplish what needs to be accomplished and possibly what is wanted to be accomplished. In school, I was patient so I can get the grades I wanted. In pro wrestling, I was patient to achieve what I saw as a goal. In life, I have tried to be patient, because I know it is the way for me to live. I know it may be difficult from time to time, but I know it is what is right for me. A very close friend of mine told me one day an old story of a man who pushed around a cart of apples for a living. The man always went about his business, pushing the cart , selling the apples. Until one day, a man on a horse rode by. The man on the horse rode by carelessly, coming close to hitting the man with the applecart. The man with the applecart, furious with the horse riders carelessness, turned over his own applecart in anger and began to yell at the rider. The only problem was, the rider just kept going, while the man sat with anger looking at his own apples on the ground. How could this happen? The rider just kept going, but the man now has the chore of picking up all of his apples. Who was in the wrong? The rider for his carelessness and lack of courtesy, yes. But more so , the man with the applecart. The man with the applecart became impatient, allowed his mind to be clouded by anger and did something that only hurt his business and himself. Now he sits, gathering all of his apples. That story can be applied to everyday life. If I have a clear mind, would I be like the man with the applecart, trying to gather what is mine because of my action? I would not think that would be a likely scenario. In a way, I would become like the rider, continuing on with my journey. My patience would help me see a better solution and to produce a better action. Then I would not be in the same situation as the man with the applecart. | |
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APPRECIATION OF EXPERIENCE
When things go good for you, everything is cool. When things go bad, everything begins to flip upside down. Either way, it has now become and experience. Regardless of being good or bad, this experience has done something many people forget, and that is allow you to gain knowledge. Over the past few months, I have gone thru my ups and downs. I dont believe I show much visibly, but I have. Regardless of what the circumstance had been, I have been able to come out with more experience and more knowledge for life. I have big things planned for the future, yet the only way to get there is to have experience. You dont run a marathon without knowing how to walk, and you learn that from a young age. You dont graduate college without first opening a book. As a kid, you dont stop spinning in circles until you either fall down from being dizzy or knock into something that will get you in trouble. Knowing things and having ideas all come from experience. Whether or not you liked the experience in order to gain the knowledge, you are now that much smarter. So in essence, you have now become stronger than before, so now you can appreciate your experience. | |
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HOSPITALITY
We go thru life encountering many things. One of the most interesting, to me, is Hospitality. It is an act of good will and etiquette that many people dont see alot of during there lives but, i feel, can benefit from if given the opportunity. I speak of this due to a recent trip from Japan. After the end of the Zero One tour in December, a few of the other wrestlers decided to go and celebrate like we normally do, GO EAT. We went to restaurant, that we had visited 6 out of 7 days prior, only to find it closed. As we approached the door we saw the sign saying it was not open for business. As we looked thru the window, we saw one of the main waiters recognize us but express his apologies. As we walked down the stairs of the restaurant, we heard the bells on the door ring. The man had opened the restaurant door. As we turned to look, we continued to walk away. What he did was something I had never experienced before. He politely invited us into the restaurant so we can enjoy a dinner. The place was closed at 11pm. We did not leave until 11:50pm. The man and the cook stood after hours to make sure we were fed. We had brought more business to the restaurant, but what really mattered was that he showed us good old fashion hospitality. He allowed us in. He took our orders. He fed us and made sure we had a good meal. And for what? Tips arent accepted in Japan. He wasnt getting anything extra from allowing a small group of Americans in for a meal. It was just good hospitality. Good will. Being a good person. The place is a Yakiniku Restaurant, or Korean Barbecue, by Hamamatsucho, in Tokyo. It helped me realize that small simple acts of kindness really do mean more than what most hold value to. Definitely going back for more.. | |
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11.18.02
Dreams do come true. Im not one preaching but i want to take the time out to talk about a 2 subjects. Family and Determination. Im still a baby at 23 with a whole world of experience ahead of me. But within this time i have been fortunate enough to experience some really cool stuff. Grew up with a strong nit family, began training in martial arts and wrestling with my family. And the sucess i have been able to achieve is welcomed and appreciated by my family. To me my family is the most important thing in the world. I love my family and those who i consider a part of it , whether or not they are related by blood. Simple things can make a person happy in life. Family , to me, is the most important. Now Determination. With all the support i receive, my natural pride in what i do, i am determined to be the best. By no means am i perfect. Nor am i trying to be. But what i am is determined to be the best that i can be at what i do. I dont want to lose the love for what i do, so i go about things in a natural order. I accept and work with the circumstances that come at me. Whether good or bad, i am determined to gain my experience to become a better wrestler, fighter and person as a whole. With the support of my family , as well as those who arent, my determination to become the best ever will carry me to wherever i am suppose to be in life. Im sitting in japan, as i write this, and i couldnt be happier with how things have happend. I met 2 people who have influenced me, probably the most as a wrestler. I got to meet Masahiro Chono AND The Great Muta. I know if it wasnt for the support from my family to continue with what i love and the determination i have to be one of the greatest pro wrestlers ever, chances are i would have never been able to do this. For all of this, i feel as if im one of the richest people on the planet. |
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10.7.02 I dont understand why things happen, maybe its because people are careless, times call for stuff to happen or maybe its just that god , who is questionable, feels the need to make examples. I think i live a pretty ordinary life, i just have an extraordinary job. I dont think i do things that are special but if i can help a person or people , i go without thought. One recent nite, i sat and listened to someone very close to me screaming for help. Rape is a very scary thing, and for someone to go thru an attempt is just as bad. The emotional scar it can leave is unbarable and i wouldnt want to see anyone have to go thru that ever. I have been crying for days because I could have stopped all of that from happening. I could have simply done what a friend does and asked for her to come visit me instead. I could have simply done something other than my routine of training, and none of this would of happend. It hurts. Someone very close to me was almost violated in the worst way, but was lucky enough to get away. Not everyone is so lucky.
According to EscapingHades.com:
One out of every six women in American has been a victim of an attempted or completed rape in their lifetime. About 62% of rape victims knew their assailant.
According to the U.S. Department of Justice, a woman is raped every 2 minutes in America
I dont understand many things in life, so i try to learn so i can. Why do good people have to go thru bad things? That is one major problem in my opinion. I believe in the importance of respecting women, and all people for that matter, yet I cant get out of my head why a person would want to do this. As someone who has sisters, a mother, other female members of family, im scared. My role , as i see it, is to protect and love my family. If i cant do that, then i have failed. I dont know if this would make sense to those who read, but please consider how important a woman, or women who are present in your life, really are.
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7.30.02 So..so...HOT! Screw Jenny Craig, all you have to do is go play out in the sun for a bit. Definitely something to do for yourselves, is make sure you keep yourselves well refreshed with water and stay cool. On saturday , the 27th, that was a very hard task. The one hour ironman match for Ring of Honor was probably the most physically demanding match I have ever had. To do something physical, where you lose more water than intake , does take its toll on you. Watching the clock count down to 00:00 was probably more relieving than any result. I thank each participant in the match, because it was because of them that this match became special. |
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7.25.02
Not many people notice anything beyond their lives throughout the day. From the time they wake up, to the time the fall asleep, they are absorbed into their own little world. There's nothing wrong with that. Before one can truly be happy one needs to be satisfied with oneself. But, things in life happen to others that just makes U wonder. Things make U just put on the brakes and take a glimpse on what would make them happen. Earlier this year, something drew me out of my world of self improvement and cultivation. In New York, a couple was in question over the treatment of their 2 year old daughter. A call to social services signalled authorities to visit the home of the couple only to find something truly sad. The daughter , Nadine Lockwood,2, was found dead in her crib. She had been the victim of child neglect. An officer claimed this to be the worst thing he had ever seen. When found, Nadine was 15 lbs, the weight of a 6 month old baby. Things like this are hard to realize. Why would a person do this to another, especially a child. On July 23, 2002, the father was convicted of his crime and is awaiting sentenceing. Probably wouldnt mean a thing to the next person, but to me it was something I couldnt let by. On July 25, for NWA-TNA, I dedicated my match, against "The Amazing" RED, to Nadine Lockwood. Mike Tenay briefly mentioned her as her initials were present on the tape of my right hand. He wasnt able to get into detail, but I figured this was at least a little something for a little girl who suffered unimaginably. As I did in my June 30,2001 Ladder match with Xavier, Nadine is was on my tape , in my heart and wont be forgotten. |
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6.27.02
Work, work and more work. Work for what u want and no one can ever take that away from you. 5 matches in 4 days along with a great distance of travel, will take a slight toll on you. I love what I do, and i wouldnt trade it for the world. Opportunity sometimes has a strange way of presenting itself , but what counts is how you manage the situation. I've been blessed with many opportunities to create a positive outlook on my behalf. I think im doing well for the moment. Some people consider me a 'machine' for how i carry things out or continually work towards things. I am determined to be the best I can be. No I dont want to join the army, I just want to have fun with what I have.
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5.17.02
I would like to take this time out to express my thoughts on something that happend the other day. I was riding the J train in New York, on my way to train at the LIWF Wrestling Club. While on the train, I noticed a man, dressed in somewhat of a rain outfit, the bright yellow rubber material, kinda like dishwashing gloves and the standard construction boots. This man was an older person, possibly in early forties or so, leaning against the train door, tired and worn from a long day at work. What i noticed around his neck was something that gave me an odd, yet proud feeling for having this encounter. Around his neck was an employee ID for the World Trade Center site. As he leaned on the doors of the train he called a fellow worker, giving him a follow up of the days work. He also said he has been there since the beginning and he's getting ready for a well deserved vacation. I made eye contact with him a few times while he stood there speaking away on his cell phone. The final time I made contact with him I stood up and offered him my seat. He was a construction worker for the World Trade Center site, working there from the day following September 11,winding down to go home and prepare for a vacation. I felt proud to actually cross paths with someone who has sacrificed his time and energy to help with something this big. I may never cross paths with him ever again, but I would like to give him my thanks for his efforts. His name was Lance Bailey.
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5.15.02
This speech was given as a farewell tribute to Marquette University
wrestling at a gathering in Milwaukee, WI. on 11-3-01 by Ohio State Head
Coach Russ Hellickson.
"From the ancient walls of Samaria and from Hieroglyphics written on the
tombs of Egyptian Kings, we know that wrestling is a sport of the ages. It
touches the lives of all who participate in it and many times even those who
just observe it.
Who can forget the emotional victory of Jeff Blatnick over cancer before his
gold medal win in Los Angeles in 1984 or the heart rendering upset victory
of Rulon Gardner over previously undefeated wrestling icon Alexander Karelin
in Australia at the 2000 Olympics.
You can see the impact of the sport in the eyes of even its youngest
combatants. Perhaps in apprehension of that very first one on one or that
glorious twinkling elation that comes from the first victory over the
vanquished foe.
And for those who stay the course for a career, their eyes reflect a passion
that penetrates deep into their very soul, a look that impacts for a
lifetime and yes a look that makes them what they are.
Here is an image that I want to leave with each of you tonight:
I am Wrestling! Do not weep for me!!
Weep for those who will never experience me.
Weep for those who will never feel the exhausting pain of my training,
Weep for those who will never sense the bond of Camaraderie that once
established, will never wane or die.
Weep for those who will never comprehend the demands of my discipline
And most of all, Weep for those poor souls who will never miss me, because
they never knew me.
I am Wrestling! Do not weep for me!!
I have been experienced in virtually every culture and civilization known to
mankind.
I have been contested in over 150 documented forms in written history.
There is no Nation on this planet that throughout all time, has not
experienced me.
I am Wrestling! Do not weep for me!!
Look to those seated around you and think of the qualities that make them
what they are:
Accountability, responsibility, persistence, fortitude, strength,
compassion, work ethic, ingenuity, determination, integrity, honesty, focus,
diligence, and resolve.
Wrestling is not the only place they could acquire these, but By God they
all reside here!!
And if you live with me long enough these will become you.
I am Wrestling! Do not weep for me!!
No political agenda or political interpretation can ever destroy me. My
merit and my worth is no threat to any cause, but rather through my values,
I am a model for others.
I am Wrestling! Do not weep for me!!
Celebrate what I am, celebrate what I have been, celebrate what I represent,
and celebrate the many ways I have impacted your life. I will survive this
test as I have survived others, I am forever etched into the very fiber of
all mankind.
The world needs me.
Time is on my side.
History guarantees me!
I am Wrestling! Do Not weep for me!!"
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 A story of a father and son life story of wrestling, growing up and letting go.
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2002
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1.31.02 Barnums Animal Crackers turn 100 years old !!!
Barnums Animal Crackers official site
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2001
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12.15.01
Today I lost one of the best people in my life. Someone who was good natured, funny, and one who i considered part of my family. Russ Haas will always be one of my closest friends in and out of wrestling. To Charlie, please accept my deepest condolences for you and the rest of the family. Rest in peace Russ, I am missing you already.
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2001
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10.13.01
IN OUR TRAGEDY, WE MUST RELY ON THE GOOD SPIRIT OF OUR HUMAN NATURE TO TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER. AIDING IN ANY WAY , SHAPE AND FORM CAN HELP RELIEVE SOME OF THE PAIN. THOUGHTS, PRAYERS AND HEARTFELT CONDOLENCES GO TOWARDS THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS OF THOSE PASSED. NYC WILL NOT LIE DOWN,WILL NOT DIE AND WILL NOT GIVE UP WITHOUT A FIGHT. WE WILL BE STRONGER THAN EVER BEFORE
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9.11.01
In this time of crisis, my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to the families of the people who have passed. This is the time to help one another. Staying calm and thinking clearly will benefit us most in this time of tragedy. I am a New Yorker. Born and bred. My heart lies in NYC.
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